Well my first day at school this week. I missed yesterday because I went into the city to go to the orthodontist. The guy felt my gums for like half an hour! Anyways so I'm at school and I'm bored I drove and my dad went in to excuse my absence yesterday. I didnt go to peer reading cuz I hate that class and I already have enuf of chem and bio....english doenst really count. I dont really like this school. The girls dont talk to me anymore and give me weird looks now. I think its because they saw the cuts on my wrists. Oh well. Damn youngens. I feel too old to be in hs. All the ppl are stupid. They think about parties and turning 18 and getting their liscences. I've been there and done that. I'm kinda passed the 16 yr old stage and I'm really getting sick of them babbling away about nothing. Sure they want to fuck around and do nothing. I'm done with that and want to finish school and I dont care if it makes me look uncool. Ppl here jsut go to school cuz there's nothing else to do. There should be 60 graduates. 60! Last year there was 62 and that was the most they ever had. At least the commencement wont be long. I cant wait to get my liscence and a lil job then I'll be to the city more often! My dad seems to be holding back on it in a way, but he already paid for the recit so he has to make an appoinment for me now. I was suppose to finish my autobiography last thursday but I'm only on grade 7 at this point. It's kinda making me depressed to think back to all the fucked up things that happened in my life. I can deal with equations and labs but my personal history is an issue. The few ppl that kno everything that I been through can understand where I'm coming from but I wouldnt even try to explian it to someone here. I dont want to give them the satisfaction of speading rumors about me. so I'm so bored and its cold outside. I thought I had chem now but apparently I had it 2nd so I did nothing and more nothing. i dont know why they switch the damn classes around anyway. I dont have school monday. You guys probly dont eihter. When I'm done here I'm going back to the city. I have enuf money for 1 yr of university or like 3 of college. I'll probably take a paramedic course somewhere. I'll find out more about that when I'm sure I'm going to graduate lol. I was just telling ryan that if I fuck up this year I'm going to adult ed. I want to get a job so I can save up for an apartment. Gawd there's nothing to do here! half hour till lunch and then what? Well I think I'm going to the city on friday. I know my dad is having a dinner thing but I dont know what my mom is doing. Geez I probably wouldnt be invited. When I was there on friday she freaked out on pat and we ahd to leave. Well till next time. Yours, Nat