this entry is dedicated to my sister, jessica. i miss jessica. starting from the begining. when my mom was pregnant with jessica, i remember running around pretending i was magical because i wished she would get pregnant. then she was born. i carried her out of the hospital and no one knew. they were all really scared. then i remember telling people i was going to throw her away. haha so many memories. we used to play house and boats. going to grandma's house in the summer. going to the park. trying to get jessica to eat poop, by telling her it was chocolate. convincing jessica she was adopted. all the hamsters we had. going to rabbit shows. oh i love her. and i hope things at school get better for her. and i hope she gets happy, because i love her and thats all that matters.