so ok i can't be a layer because i can't count and if you want to know what i am talking about check out my entry names.... ok so this song kicks ass... anyways. i miss ian. very much. and i hate online diaries because they are so stupid. but i am doing it anyways because i want to learn to be honest with people and open up and let them know what i feel. i miss ian. everyday. increasingly more. long distance is very hard. and it can work if you want it to. but that doesnt mean it is easy. if a relationship can do long distance then everything else should be easy. thats how i see it anyways. i also need to lose weight. deal with it people. i am overweight and i am gonna talk about it. i want to weigh 125. thats my ideal weight. i want to get back into running. its been a hard year for me but i need to come back i need to wake the old me up. i need to be motivated i need ... i need ian. bitch plz...