love bug- heres the deal. boys are dumb. don't waste time being sad over them. i know its hard. but its not worth it. seriously. there is SSOO much you are going to want to accomplish in life, you will come to realize this. hopefully not too late. high school dating is really over rated. honestly i know. i dated the same boy for 2 years. and yeah sometimes it works out, but for the most it is not goign to happen. plus one day you will find a great guy or many great guys. i have been blessed though ryan and i were too young and stuff he was good to me. and it happened naturally. acctually it happened when i didn't want it to. and now, even better, i have ian. who constantly sends me cards telling me how much he cares. he takes me out to dinner, or fixing me meals. he buys me ice cream and flowers. he takes care of me when i am sick. though we are not dating my feelings for him are growing stronger. but i want to take things slow. i want to travel. i want to finish college. i want to have my own friends. i want to be free. i want to do what i want and not worry about anything. i only say this to you because you write in your journal (sitdiary) that you want a boyfriend so bad. but truthfully, you need to be comfortable with jessica, before you can be comfortable with a relationship. just grow up, have fun, be silly. those things are very important. and i love you and i just want you to have a great high school experience and be happy. don't waste your time worrying. you are to awesome of a person, and you have so much going for you no matter how much you don't believe it. i can't wait to come home. and for krissy's wedding i bought this pinkish orange dress. you can have it after the wedding if you want. you can wear it to your confirmation. i hope that these words help you and you appreciate them. again, i love you! and have fun!