yesterday it felt like my heart was ripped outta my chest. my beautiful baby sister was crying. she was so upset. i just don't understand people. why are they mean to her? she is such a great person and she cares so much for everyone, even people she doesn't like. i know this because she tells me everything. but gosh she was so upset yesterday. after prom she called me to pick her up and i started yelling and swearing at her cause i had just come from prom. and then she like got disconnected and i called back and she was CRYING. NO. SHE WAS BALLING HER EYES OUT. i felt SOO bad. but she said it wasn't cause of me. so i raced myself over to that school to save my little baby. when i got there i held her in my arms and i tried to make her feel better. i LISTENED to how she felt and why. it wasn't cause i yelled at her that she was crying. she was scared that no one had a ride. and none of her so called "FRIENDS" would give her one. i just want my baby to be happy. and it absolutly kills me inside to know that there are people out there who can make her cry like that. seriously. the whole night my heart was breaking. she is only 15 this is supposed to be the time of her life. her friends are supposed to be there for her. listen to her and CARE about what she says. she is a good person. gosh i love her so much. and i hope she knows that. i wish that i was younger and we could have been friends in school. that would have been awesome. i wish i didn't have to leave on sunday. i don't want to leave her here alone. i guess willmar has changed. its not the frienldly place it used to be. kids are drinking a lot and doing a lot of drugs. having sex. WHY THE HELL IS EVERYONE OBSESSED WITH HAVING A BOYFRIEND???? i just don't get it. anyways. i just wanted to write about the pain in my chest because of last night. and jessica, don't ever hesitate to call me to talk ok? im sorry i missed your phone call last time though.