Tonight i was soooo fukin pissed off at my dad. I was right pumped all week because tonight was my first nite of hockey.. i went out after school and told my mom when dad got there to tell him to pick m eup for hockey.. well he decided to tell her that it was cancelled so i get home and asked where my dad was and she told me what he said.. so i was bumed out.. so me and amanda went to the arena anyway to see what was going on.. and there was my team practising on the ice.. and my coach was like why arent you playing.. and he told me that my dad told him i couldnt find my equipment which is a total Lie.. he just was too busy for me. What an ass. Ill freak on him tomorrow if he doesnt pick me up for hockey camp. Anyway i went to amandas till like 11 and then asked joey for a ride home.. but we didnt end up going home.. we drove around .. went to the dock.. aww im so confused.. marty gets out tomorrow and he isnt even going to come to the bay. Jerk. I guess its the fact that he hasnt been here for so long that the more im with joey the more feelings i have for him. Im so fuked.. i just miss marty so much. Well im out. Got hockey early tomorrow morning.