I am sending out this HOWLLLL,to all those hidden lupines in the kck/kcmo area.the time is come that a gathering be held and all packs should attempt to attend.I would like input from others on how we could go about organizing this. Or have I and my mate become the only true lychens in this region?If that is so then may gaea forgive us all.If not then lets see what we can put together.

To all you two faced bitchs out there who are not even man enough to say whats on your mind face to face,at least have the balls to leave a name with a coment on kelly's diary.If you got a problem with me then do something about it,otherwise stay the fuck out of my life. how dare you ignorent fucks talk all this shit behind my back but are to scared to come say it to my face.YOU PATHETIC MORTALS!!!

It is strange to me that something as simple as a bag of skittles could me so much to me.Let me explain this.I came home from work tonight and Kelly met me at the door,then as soon as we came upstairs to the bedroom,she handed me a bag of my favorite sweets(skittles,,I love those things)Out of no where.I wasn't expecting anything,plus I thought that she was still mad at me from an arguement we had earlier today.(our first)But it means so much to me that she would care enough to; one,remember how much i love skittles, and two, think enough of me to want to surprise me like that.No one has ever done anything like that for me before.This is all so strange to me,that a woman could or would actually think enough of me to be so nice.And I don't understand why.I mean all my life I have been a fuck up,no matter how hard I try to change it.What in this life time or any life time for that matter could I have done that was so right as for me to deserve this type of woman?I don't see what she sees in me,but it seems like she truly loves me.I don't think she's just feeling sorry for me or anything like that.And I don't think it's because she feels like she should because it's what others expect of us.When I look at her it seems 100% genuine.I pray that it is because I don't know if I could take being hurt like that again.I have let her in far more than any other except Levy,and to be crushed like that again would literally kill me.But the strange thing is that the conection that is between Kelly and I seems stronger that the one that I shared with Levy.I actually feel like this may be what my entire existance has been leading me towards.That all of the pain and sorrow,all the failures and searching has led me to this point in time.That I may now rest and learn of peace,joy,and true happiness.To be able to truely experience love,and to actually be loved by some one else.

Things in life aren't all bad now.Some of it is actually so near perfect it's scary.This lone wolf has managed to find a mate that truely love me as much as I love her.It is as if she is the one whom all my prior failures has been leading me to.The wrongs in my life just so happeded to bring me and her together at a point where I am now capable of staying with her and am out of troble with cops and courts and all that shit. Granted I wish I could have found her oh.. about 5-6 years ago,..Oh..shit..I did, ooppss.I never once claimed to be the sharpest spoon in the drawer.But at that point in my life I was no where near worthy of her.I would have screwed it up and she would probably have done exactly what Aurora did. But now I have a chance to succeed or fail by my self without the assistance of the legal system.So we will see where we go from here.I have descided not to try to overanalize this one,to just go with the flow and see where life and love can lead.As long as I can maintain and not get to overdramatic things should go just fine.

It is odd not being near the comfort and companionship of the pack.Now that most of the other members have left or just descided that they didn't want to be anymore,it seems like I have lost all sence of family.And as far as I can tell,no one is planning on returning to the fold. Let all the true wolves in the area that hear this call know that it is the cry of a lone wolf who merely seeks the shelter and friendship of pack once again. HOWLLLLLLLLLLLLLL.

The wolf is not just an animal.It is that primal force that drives you.That leads you to fight back, to live, to be whole.As the moon rises, the soul cries out to the goddess.Awaken all those who would truly live and not just merely EXIST.