Today was a fine day like usual. Mmm... it seems like the world is falling apart around me though. I don't really know. CC's all messed up because she thinks that she is Danica's last resort friend so to speak and Jesse just got caught for doing ecstasy and I want to go with Patrick down to the Keys over spring break but I don't think my parents are going to let me because since he's my boyfriend and they dont trust me and everything like parents usually don't. If I can't go with Patrick down to the Keys over spring break then his ex Amanda is probably going to go with him because about a year ago when they were still going out they had planned to go there together. So if I can't go I think that she's going. That in itself is a fucking bloody recipe for disaster. Disaster on wheels. She's been trying to steal Patrick back for as long as she's known that we were going out even though she has a new boyfriend of her own now and even though she broke up with him... but whatever... And I had a really good weekend because I did two hits of acid and they were really good and it was like pure euphoria for me. And I didnt get caught and life should be good, fine, and jim dandy like it's been all day long but it isn't anymore and I don't know why and it's bringing me down. Plus I really want cigarettes and I am totally out of them. And it really, really, really sucks mad cookies. Urg. Usually I am a lot happier than this but something about the darkness of this room and the crappy dinner I just ate and me being under house arrest (grounded in simpler terms) is putting more gravity on me than I'm used to. Well adios. -Roxie