The worst thing happened to me yesterday. I didnt get to talk to my girlfriend all day. She had tutoring after school and I was doing my paper. When she gets home, she showers and eats. She calls me back and i did the worst thing to her. My friend calls me and i told her that i would call her back. That was so stupid. Why did i do that. I chose to talk to my friend that i talked early to and hung up the phone with my girlfriend. I am such a fukin asshole. I hadn't smoked in a month and i smoked on mon. It made me feel so good that i wanted more but it had made problems between me and my girlfriend. If i have this problem where drugs are taking over my life, thats when i know i have to stop and that it could jepordize me and my girlfriends relationship. I dont want that to happen.Me and her already talked about it and it i knw we discussed the situation but i feel so bad because i made her feel that drugs are more important. Which they are not. I dont know if she is still upset about the situation but all im going to do is put it behind me. I love her soo much.she made me think last nite that. I couldnt sleep knowing that she was pissed at me at the fact that drugs was the only thing on my mind. It was on my mind but its not my 1st priority. I knw that it would take over my life and i have decided that i am done with smoking. Its not worth losing the person i love so much over weed. weed makes me feel good for a couple hours but Cobi can make me feel good forever. I love her so much. Well, thats all i have to say and i have to get back on my paper.Im almost done so i might write later.