I haven’t written in the diary in a long time. Its good to be back. Wow, alot has happened over the past few months. Good things and bad! But, this past week has been very depressing for me. Awe! I am so sad. The worst thing has happened to me. It hurt me so much. Like, it was so unexpected, you know. You don't really expect the person you love to do that to you. But, I don't know what to do, there are so many things that I just want to tell her, but I am afraid I am just going to lose my cool and say or do something that I might regret. That’s what I am afraid of happening. But, I love her so much, I can’t hurt her. She is the love of my life. She means everything to me. But, hopefully I can get over this, I want to move on. The bad part is that, the thought of what she did just won’t get out of my head. I try really hard not to think about it, but it just won’t get out. I love her to death; I want everything to go back to normal. I have been trying to do things that keep my mind occupied but it still doesn’t work. I guess, its going to take time for me to get over it. The sooner, the better!