thinking

by heartbreaksets
How is it fair that no matter what I do...I always feel like an outcast. Everyone I bring into the group is adapted so quickly...but me...I still feel like I'm on the sidelines. No matter what people say that is how I feel. Everyone can say how messed up that is...but it doesn't change it. Mike & Jamie text eachother constantly & there's the battle with a certain guy she has going...Jackie...well there's the Mark thing...and she's always with Jan it seems...jealousy people could call it. Go ahead and call it that. I don't mind. And I don't know how comfortable I am with this boyfriend thing. I don't know. I think too much. But I'm not meant for some perfect fairy tale relationship...am I mean for a relationship at all though? I feel so out of place...no matter what people try. Maybe that's just how it is going to be. Maybe I should just get used to & adapt to it. -*-*-*-
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I don't know very much about you and ryan so i'll wait to comment about that.. But what you're feeling with your friends is natural. I've felt the same things. Maybe it's bc we're so alike.. I don't know. We'll talk tonight. Love you lover
That's exactly how I am! I always feel like nobody likes me or I'm annoying or I don't fit in and just get all paranoid and worried about everything.

It's very annoying.
yeah deffinately. It's one of those problems where there's really nothing you can do except get over it and realize you aren't half as out of place as you think. I deffinately just think its a low self confidence thing. I'm slowly starting to get over it so you probably will too. just don't be so hard on yourself :)