Happiness is a sought after trait...

by heartbreaksets
This is not meant to be a happy journal. Xanga is that. This is the inner thoughts...the dark thoughts...the sadness. He's come back into my life once again...to stay? I don't know. I'm scared to give him that oppportunity again to hurt me. I left myself wideopen for it last time. I could not bare the pain again. It's unbelievable...I can not even believe that i'm considering this again...after all that happened. The kiss that i refused to return, the stars, the hands, the everything. but then again...the comfort...the sincere comfort. Priceless moments of everything feeling right for just that second, that minute, and just wanting it to last...just a little bit longer... The kisses were killer... the cheek, the neck...put me into a world i had never seen before...at first it scared me...and then i wanted to be there. I wanted that feeling...that perfect place. But then again..these are probably wasted words...and wasted time. Why would he feel for me as he did before once again? I feel the same toward him...but what's the chance? I do not get that lucky. The chances are slim...the possibilities...slimmer. I'll be praying hard tonight for God to help me through this once again. Because in the long run...he has this under his control. -*-*-*-
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Whoa u sound like me....dw sweety, things will work out for the best eventually....Mwah
lol yea we do have something in common ay...
blondie55 told me to come to your diary and read your entry, that i would find 'the whole story' here. well, i want to know whats going on. if you don't mind. i dont know you but strangers are usually the best listeners.
I know it would. so therefore, i won't. anytime i start to think about it, you pop into my mind. and your words linger on my heart and i am able to
[Anonymous]
God does have all this under control, babe. and remember, it's not a matter of being lucky. you are amazing and you deserve him..not the past pain, but something new..and you're right, "sincere"..it appears to be that way now, and I'm praying hard that this will work out just perfectly <3
stop. you have no idea how much you've impacted me, and i couldn't be more grateful for that. Thanks for everything.
[Anonymous]
in know in some ways how you feel and in many ways i get that. my sitdiary id meant to be both happy and sad. but it is more morbid than glory. later
it is easier to write sad or mournful things, love is easy to write about too. It comes out better because it has alot of emotion and feeling behind it. later for now.
thank you, and i know i usually check comments on the entry b4 so i dont miss anything.
Oh goodness. I understand how that goes. I went through that with this guy Paul. Im sorry, that totally sucks. I say just try to go with your gut feeling. But if your gut feeling is skeptic you should be too. You know? just be careful... once a liar, always a liar. Boys will be boys and they can only think with either their head or their penis. It's one or the other, never both.