why do sometimes bad things happen to good people? everything was fine..i had a perfect life...why do these things happen to me?? why does my life has to suck so much!?!?!?!?!

everything is so fcking wrong...i´m so f*ing sad... this life is shit..

I hated today..but like...TOTALLY HATED IT! everything was so wrong! he didnt call ..he is acting all kind of weird! i really thought he liked me!! and it´s valentine´s tomorrow and im gonna be al by myself!! i wanna cry so hard.........i failed 4 subjects EVERYTHING is soooooooo wrong!

Im soo pissed at everyone... he got here around 12...and he didnt calle me!!!!!! i got sooooooooo mad....then he called like at 8 saying he hadnt been at home & shit...i didnt see him for about two weeks..he´s just gonna be here for like 3 days and then he´s leaving again for holidays!!!! he donesnt love mee and doesnt care at all! if he did he would´ve called..!! my dad is getting %=(·$/=!("/"!= i cant stand hiiiiiiim!!!!!!!!! aaashshdfff my day totally sucked!i even think im gonna quit my job which i have just been in like for a week :S :S:S:S

Things around here are getting worse every single day..my parents decided to be honest with my sis and I...MY DAD IS A GAMBLER! I cant beilieve i hadnt realized it! that is why we were going through so much...through tough economic problems..he lost everything..my mom tried to make some money and she works really hard but she said its enough....she ask him for a divorce.. im really sad....and i feel really ALONE!! I went to this guy who Ive been getting along pretty well with.. we talked & i told him everything..he was so nice to me i started falling for him like right in a sec! but then it happened...we kissed & stuff...I HATE IT! why cant i hold myself?!?! every time i have a best boyfriend we kiss! and then it just doesnt work out....i wanted to wait a little more..but i guess he couldnt hold himself neither.. He went with his friends on winter vacation and then with his family to spend xmas & new year...i wont see him in a month so that gives us some time to think whats coming next. im really sad..

Im so sad! I nead him! I REALLY NEED HIM! i need to hear his voice...to feel his hot body near mine...i need to hear him say he still loves me..i cant believe he came back..but he is gone again :(

My exboyfriend...who i hadnt seen in 3 years..CAME BACK!! it was sooooooo coooooooool! o still love him and he still loves me:( but he has a girlfriend back where he is....and he is not coming back to live here never again...its so sad..but it was nice seeing him again!

im sick of this..of all of these..

Theres a guy that gets my atention so badly!! I cant stop staring at him..! He is SOOO INTERESTING! and he loves to write poems and stuff...i love guys that right! it makes me crazy when a guy writes poems or rhymes for me... He is not totalt cute or anything..but theres something about him that makes me stare,,

Suddenly...from one minute to the other im so sad suddenly... my life turns not to be so great suddenly...im all by myself in this rainy day suddenly... i wish he and I had worked out our issued & we couldve been together now sudddenly... i feel the deep need of a kiss...but not any kis..HIS KISS...kisses are so addictive.. suddenly...i really hate who i am now

I hadnt written lately..i guess i have so much to say but i cant find words to... My parents are fighting too much! My mom wants my dad to move out or somn...and to find a better job..i guess we are running out of money & my parents R running out of patience.. Love sucks a bit right now..i have too much crushes..but theres no one that really beats my heart out..i hate it.. its been rainning a lot..i love rain..but it kind -a- makes me sad..

He didn´t come after all...two long months just listening to his voice, waiting for him to call..but never seeing him, touching him, missing his lips....its SOOOO OVEEEEEEEER! My parents finally got me a ride!! wuw hehe im so exited! they got me a yellow EXPLORER!WUUWUW hehe I met a really cute & sexy babe @ this bar..he was totally flirting with me..i hope i see him again soon..

I feel like shit...like crap...my parents totally hate me right now..i hate it.. Yesterday my lil-sis wanted to drink..and i know much better bout alcohol than she does...so it was so easy for me to give her some glasses..but she got too drunk...and today my parents found out and they totally hate me!! They will NEVER EVER trust me again!! I KNOW IT! FUCK..!!

tODAY was pretty weird..i´m kind of mad.. Sometimes getting along with your friend´s boyfriend may be pretty bad..tonight we went to japanese restaurant and i was playing and fooling around with arthur...(my friends boyfriend) and she kind-a got jelous oor somn!!! AND SHE CALLED MY BOY AND TOLD HIM I WAS FLIRTING AND BOTHERING HER BOY!! WTF!!! WTF!!!!!!!!!! i got sooooooo pissed oooofff! no..IM STILL MAD! wth!!! aaaaaaaaaaahghghghgg & he hasnt called me!! its 1:16!!! i´m soooooooo angryyy!!!! i wished he lived here so i could come around and #$&#$)!$!)? aaaaaaaa!! i dunno....im really sad too cause i´m not seeing him till august...:( im sad..im mad...AAAAAGHH WTF!... okei bye..

I thought things had changed, maybe b/c i left for three weeks..but then i came back to reality..my parents are still fighting.. money problems are still huge...i´ve got no car.. he´s coming to visit in one week and my life here SUCKS! I feel the need to impress him i dunno why....but i´ve got nothing to impress him but myself and my real life..which is not the best We haven´t talked in two days for the first time in one month and a week....its weird...but i miss him. He went to Las Vegas with his family for vacation...but i wanna see him so bad!

Things have changed a lot around here! Im so happy now...my life´s getting better! I went three weeks with some friends to some important cities to study and stuff...like to take summer school and stuff...ut was awasooooome! I met a really cute guy..and we´ve been talking a lot lately! He says he loves me and cute things like that...he´s coming to visit in three weeks..i really wanna see him! Yesterday he got mad at me ..i really dont know why..and i kept calling but he never answered his phone...i dont know what will happen next! but im happy! hehe ;)

I´m so sad...my parents are mad and my mom said something like "I swear I´m still with your dad b/c of your sister & you..."........that made me feel like she didn´t love him anymore or somn...they fight a lot lately..:( i hate it when people fight..specially mom & dad b/c they fight b/c of my fault or my sisters fault..! today I was at Alan´s and Jack came...we were toghether like for 10 mmin and then my dad came looking for me! i got so upset! and my mom got upset too and they started discussing b/c I wanted to stay..and my dad wanted to bring me home..and my mom wanted me to stay too...so..it was sad.. hes leaving for 2 months..im really gonna miss him! i miss my friend too...i havent seen him and i know he wants to fix things...but the problem is..I DONT KNOW IF I STILL WANT TO FIX THINGS TOO! i think im cool like this...i miss talking to him and spending time with hime & stuff..but he made me cry a lot..so maybe im better of this way.. i dont know.. IM SO SAD..

So ...yesterday we finally talked:S He started the conversation..and he kept asking me why was I so upset..and he said he wanted us to fix things...I was invited to a friend´s contry house b/c of his b-day...and he was going to go too!! But i didnt know...then I finally didnt go to the party in the country house b/c I went out of town with my dad..and he asked me if I was gonna go..i said no and then he said.."oOK me neither..I was just gonna go b/c you were going..& i wanted to talk to u..I think we should fix things..why are you acting like this? we used to be better..whats going on..??." I really miss him!! I havent seen him like in a month or more..if things just didnt go they way they´re going..:S ..... Jack and I discussed...but I think we R gonna b fine..

We haven´t talked...one of his friends asked me why was I so mad at him...but I didn´t tell.. His nicknames are still stuff like "it´s better if you hate me"..and "i cant believe youve changed so much..what made you mad?" and stuff like that..i really hate being mad at him and i miss him...but I DO think we are better this way.. Jack hasnt called..I think things are not gonna work out..I really thought I would get to somn this time...but I GUESS I WAS WRONG AGAIN!..

I hate this stupid diary!!! I wrote a whole entry and aaaaaaaaaaaghgh#$#$!°!! So...i said today i hang out with my friends and we went for some pizza and to the movies..it was fun! Jack called me later and we went to D&B...it was so neat! He kep hugging me...holding my hand..kissing my hair and my cheeks... but I know we cant be..so Im really backing up.. 1. he cant date a catholic 2.i m leaving for 3 weeks this summer 3. he is leaving for 2 months! 4.his friends would absolutely hate me i dont know what to do or feel..:S