Yesh i feel a bit weird right now, some many things to think about and it sux!...for somereason i dont feel right, this whole week ive been overthinking to much...and it unhealthy!lol but yeah, my heart feels heavy right now and i pray to God to teel me what i feel cuz i dont know what it is, i just want hime to left it all away from me right now, maybe im just stressin myself? Maybe im just a cry baby that needs to suck it up, eh i dunno... ive had a lot of random thoughts just wanna know if anyone has ever thought about what i have thought about (i hope i didnt just confuse you @.@) 1: Have you ever listened to a song youve listened to in the past, and all of a sudden it just takes you back? i have, its weird! i'll be listening to a random song and i'll be like.."oh yeah! this is when i did something something and i was listening to this!"...o.o; yeah awkward i know ^^ 2: Have you ever looked back and just reliezed how much youve embarresed yourself? ive done that some many times..it makes me laugh now and i put my head down and get embarresed all over again... 3: Have you ever thought up of something so sad, it just makes you wanna break down and cry? Ive done this to myself so many times, sometimes it wont be sad, sometimes its just tears of Joy which i love that feeling... 4: Has your heart ever pumped realy fast, feel heavy, or just sinks into yourself?... Lately yes this has been happing its feels so weird..yet so good? i dont know if i like the feeling or not... 5:have you always just wanted to someone, but you hold it into yourself and it kust kills you inside?...I do this cuz i dont want anybody to be worried about me ^^; meh theres more i just can think of them right now, but whatevah right ^^ its all good in the hood *cheesy yes very..* i heard my cousin ran away from home, please dont tell anyone if i know you..please...but yeah my cousin has been ditching for 2 weeks and My aunt got mad at him..he said he didnt want to be there anymore...i wanted to cry when i heard this today, i dont want anything bad to happen to him, just thinking about it gets me teary...i just dont understand..why would he leave? My Aunt does everything for them...im guessing its because my uncle had left too..i remeber when i was at thanksgiving at their house..i looked at their fridge...i happy looking dad with his 2 sons, had been crossed out but what seems to be a small sharp knife...along with some tagging on the top, i couldnt look at it anylonger...but there was another one, i think it was just my uncle alone in the picture..smiling..the picture was untouched...i wanted to cry...i wish things were better, i want to see my uncle and give him one more hug, but i dont know if that will ever happen.... ........*swithching mood*....... Today was pretty okie, hung out with my friends..had a good time..what else can i say? ive been doodling a lot, i think im gettin better, maybe someday i'll get more people to watch me on dA! wee! (stinky Mr.manny always putting me down *shakes fist*) i was about to right something..but now i forgots ^^ so i'll just leave it with this...laters