today's just sort of stupid. people want me to do this, do that. don't bother, cause I DON'T WANT TO!!!!! lately, whenever i try to make myself or someone else happy, it completely backfires. they tell me it's not good enough & shit like that. then people wonder why i hate them or why i dont give a fuck. i'm so sick of getting pulled in different directions at the same time. just when i count on something to go right for me, it doesn't. when i think i'm doing something good for myself, i'm wrong & my opinion completely changes. i dont make apologies to anyone. if i dont live up to your standards, fuck you. who am i trying to impress? im not trying to impress anyone. you're no better than me, so dont pretend like you are. i do the best i can. the BEST that i can. nobody & i mean NOBODY has the right to judge me or anyone else.