so right now i feel icky. i have a sore throat in august? im kind of achy, tired.. & not to mention its so not pretty outside which automatically puts me into a slump. i can't believe school is here in a week. that's unbelievable. i thought we had, like, 3 more weeks. when i first got out of school i was like dying to go back. but now i don't want to. last year was awesome... pretty much no homework. but this year i NEED to do all of my homework, i NEED to do well. i need to stop obsessing over useless, disappointing boys. it never gets me anywhere. everything you've ever wanted comes the moment you stop looking. or so i've heard. so that's what i'm going to do. i'm gonna focus on work, even though it's not the FUNNEST thing. i want a good job & a future i can be proud of, i don't wanna regret just fucking around. sure, i'll still be my crazy self in class. in fact, i'm gonna be 10 times funnier than before (to make up for my homework/studying filled nights of woe). the guy i love.. idk. i hate using the word love. it makes me feel old, boring & serious. which of course, i'm none of those things. so allow me to humor myself by using the word "like". ok, so the guy i like.. he acts like he likes me ... everyone who knows i like him is convinced that he does.. but forgive me for being old fashioned, but you'd think he'd call once & a while.. or something to show he likes me. i'm so sick of worrying about it.. so i wont for now. if we dont have classes together i guess theres not much to run on anymore. we'll see. summer has come & passed the innocent can never last wake me up when september ends