So wow so much had happened to me. My aunt tried to commit suicide by OD because of a guy and stress (got that), medics pumped her stomach and saved her. She was sent to acadia a few days later. When she was able to come home, D.H.S was called and they were gonna take away her kids because of her boyfriend (long story dont ask), so she dumped her boyfriend when she called him to call it off he was by the DeerIsle bridge and he was gonna kill himself by jumping...... but didn't (tried it because he had nobody his family dosn't care, she was all he had left), he was then sent to acadia. This guy is the uncle of one of my best friends..... so that made everything so much worse. He came home. So I'm sooooo scared that because of everything that I'm feeling between guys, school work, family and my social life...... that its possible that I might sink down to that level and right now I can tell u all honestly that all I want to do is sleep forever.... I'm tired of trying and being hurt, but the good thing is that I'm toooo scared that if I tried something like that that maybe I might be successful. I wish there was a way to shake myself up, to get so scared to relize how short life really is and maybe I wouldn't wondering what it's like to be dead..... I just wish I could be happy and love life.