Hey everyone what is going on?.. Its been a loooong time since I have been on here last.. I just felt like typing something and saying hi!.. But I am pretty sure I will be bored lately being in trouble in all so just leave me some messages and I'll get back to ya!!... XOX Megan

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Yeah I just found out that my boyfriend of eight months is moving to North Carolina in a week.. I have no feelings anymore.. He says he will still be and every chance he gets he will come back to me but I know things are giong to change and the days are going to pass without me hearing from him or even seeing him.. Love can touch us one time and last for a liftime.. I know I will never forget him and I will pray everynight that he comes back to me.. but for our last night together I know all I will do I cry.. I want him to go to North Carolina and be happy though so I guess I have no reason to cry if he will be happy.. I just pray that he wont forget what we have.. Do you ever feel like sometimes life isnt going the bad way you thought it would? So sweethearts is this weekend and all my friends are like omg megan you have to go and blah blah blah.. but ok I am the kind of person that likes to go out and have a crazy time but I mean a high school dances arnt that fun to me.. No one really dances anyways and when they do its only the girls cause the guys are chicken shit! That doesnt make me a part pooper! Spring Break is less then a month away and it couldnt get here any sooner.. now that they bags are packed and shipped off and the tanning has began.. well that is really all I have to say even though most of it I know has no meaning to you lol.. later :p

I really wanna care, I wanna feel soemthing. Let me dig a little deeper, No, man sorry, nothing.. ^ love that song! I miss the days when a catapiller crawling up my arm made me laugh and a friend was never lost but always gained. Cuts could always be fixed by Nurse Mom and a tear always fell on the edge of a smile. Now I dont notice the butterfly passing by and friends are gone with a blink of an eye. And "Nurse Mom" cant fix a broken heart. And that tear, turned into tears that fall on a pillow. Oh wow.. basketball season is finally over and I feel like I have a life again.. even tho me and a couple of my frineds got into it tonight.. just another girl drama thing.. geeze.. drama.. gotta hate it!!.. Me and Eli I think are better then ever and we had a great valentine's day as I wish you did too!! :).. My dad got me and my step sisters floor tickets to the pacer v. portland game and it was a blast! I got a kiss from Bowser.. ya I know what a hotti! lol.. Finally got all my spring break stuff ready and I am so excited.. omg!! My neice finally turns one in less then a month and it makes me feel sooo old!! lol As annoying as she is sometimes I still love her to death!.. My mom is leavin a week bfore my spring break to go get married in the mountains and I am happy for her.. I think lol.. School is totally getting on my nerves and I am so ready for it to be out! I am taking a ceramics class and I am really glad I am cause I figured out that I really like to do art.. at first I thought it was going to be gay but I really like it.. hmm.. ....... <3 Megan

yeah right now I am kinda tipsy.. alright well maybe a lot.. my best friend Jessica just had a party so all of us are sitting here either half dead of getting sick all over the floor.. yeah its great..my head feels so light right now and I feel so out of it!!.. AHHH!! lol yeah so me and eli broke up I guess but now we are going back out..why I dont know and how I dont know.. all I know is that I love him a lot and I cant stand not being with him..well thats enough for right now I gotta make sure a friend dont have alchie posioning.. later!!

Its been a long time now since I last wrote but sadly enough nothing has really changed.. my life is still hell on earth and my love life still isnt going the way I wish it would.. but hey sometimes you gotta roll with the punches.. Basketball season is almost over though.. Sectionals time!! We won our first game and we have a game tomorrow and saturday if we win.. which in ways I hope we do but in others.. I'm hessitent about.. The bigg V-Day is coming up and I still dont know what to get my man for that suposed to be "special" day.. this weekend.. actually tomorrow.. my best friend finally turns 15 and of course cause of basketball I cant be there with her but miracles do happen.. I am so excited that I am counting down the days till spring break.. then after spring break it will be the days left till school ends of course.. I am also excited cause I have drivers ed in May finally.. I bitched long enough my mom gave in.. but other then those minor details nothing has really changed.. <3 Megan..

Oh wow.. we just got rid of all that ice and then bring on the snow.. It got me a twohour delay from school so I guess I dont really mind.. so we played Delta again after county.. we were tied up to the fourth then they won by 5.. it was a good game and prob the best I have ever played.. prob cause I hated everyone of the girls on the other team.. :).. V won of course tho.. they won by like 18.. their game was a good game too tho..Its finals week and I am stressing like no other.. I hate taking tests.. I can do homework and quizes and all that but when it comes to tests even if I study you might as well put an F on it cause thats wht I get.. Dont know why but.. oh well.. I dont really care..we are officially moving and i am sooo happy! I hate living here and my school.. lol right now I am sitting next to by far the funnest grl I have ever met in my life.. she is so crazy.. she says the damnested things.. I cant even describe her.. lol anyways.. I had to say that cause she just said something about hot apple cidder that made me laugh.. but yeah anyways.. my week has been alright besides the tests.. how has yours been? <3.. Megan..

Game night.. Shanedoha.. or how ever you spell it.. lol Yesterday started off as a shitty day.. I said something to my mom and she totally didnt take it as a joke so I got bitched out before I went to school.. and yesterday we wernt suposed to have school but we did cause we missed days already.. so I am mad already.. but while I was in gym treding water for 35 mins. the prin. came in and told us that they had to shut off the water to the school so we were getting out in a halfnhour.. which was 11! so I was very happy and plus my boyfriend didnt have school so I got to hang with him.. Yeah if any of you actually read this you'll noticed that I went shopping the other day.. well on the way down to go shopping the flat tire light came on and being six grls we didnt really think anything of it.. well we went shopping had a blast and was about to leave as the mall was closing we went out to go to the car and Tammi realized we had a flat!.. none of us knew how to change a tire so of course we flipped.. we called our parents and they told us to call someone to come fix it.. the nearest person to come fix it would take three hours.. omg! it was cold and we waited for three hours.. I was so mad.. but then we went to OliveGarden and had a little fun and headed home but it ended up being a really really long day! I HATE FINALS!!

My sexybeast Ecka.. just asked who the guy at the beginging of my entries was.. omg JOHN GOTTI IS FLIPPING HOTT!!! I want his hot body.. :) Today was finals for county and we whipped Delta's ass.. sooo bad! It was great.. grls got mad and some grls cried.. lol Mahhahh!! It was awsome beinging a freshmen and getting to be there and getting a piece of the net.. I loved it and plus I love the seniors we have right now and it is my last year here so it was pretty cool... Yeah I know I cant spell right you dont have to tell me.. I am a blonde on the inside.. :) ILOVEELI!!.. :) dfsldjflkjsldkjfoiwureknsdf I dont really have anything else to write about so yeah.. lol well tomorrow I am going shopping for a bathingsuit and I am so excited.. one step closer to spring break!!... WHOOOOHOOOO!! Party Hardy!! leave me one.. <3.. Megan

Another boring day at school.. blah.. Yesterday was by far one of the slowest days of my life.. maybe it was because it was our first day back to school in like a week or so but I dont know I didnt enjoy it at all.. Last night was also the first game for county.. we played Dalville and we kicked ass of course.. it wasnt that they suck so bad but our varsity is just good.. lol :) Why are some teachers just do stupid.. like seriously now.. I mean I have said a few things about the teacher I have right now so I figured I share a few more.. ok this guy used to be like a totaly boardbum.. and that seems to be liket he only thing he talks about.. and his family.. and sometimes he crys.. and the whole class laughs of course.. this guy trys to be so cool it is annoying.. he tells jokes that arnt really that funny and he lets everyone walk all over him so everyone acts like they like him but when he isnt around everyone talks about him.. I mean seriously now this guy needs a reality check.. and sadly enough I have him for three hours in a row every other day.. BLAH.. majorly Today has gone a little better then yesterday and even though we have had a two hour delay both days I am still really sleepy.. We have another county game tonight against Selma and we have beat them already so we are ready for it.. Well class is about to let out.. have a great day! <3.. Megan I LOVE ELIJAH

.. the reason I feel beautiful is because I just had the perfect night with Eli.. I swear nothing could have gone wrong.. I love being with him.. even when I am in the shittiest mood he can always make me laugh.. AHHH!! Ok I am from Indiana and I am about.. no actually I am.. sick and tierd of all this flipping bad weather we have been haven! I am not a snow girl or a rain girl for that matter.. and I hate it when it is cold outside.. and plus with everyone's power being out and my house out of like one of the few to have power arond here everyone is stayin at my house! CRAZINESS! like no other.. I got friends family my brother's friends.. just everyone and let me tell you we do NOT have a big house.. it sucks ass.. The only thing I am liken about all this is I got out half day on wensday, no school thursday, friday, monday, tuesday and half day wensday.. WOOOHOOO! I hate being in school mainly because yes I am smart I really am but my parents have pushed me so much to be the best that I dont even care anymore and I slackoff like no other now.. and deff changed the people I hang out with to people like me.. but thats enough about that one! Omg.. spring break is only 65 days away and I am sooo ready.. I am gonna miss him so much though.. :( OK.. HELP.. what if you want to talk to your boyfriend about something really important but it is kind of personal.. but has to do with our relationship.. ALOT.. no I dont have aids or anything like that.. but I mean should I wait for a certain time or should I just come right out and tell him.. <3.. MeganDawn

Omg.. I hate this stupid weather! I hate being cold and with my luck I am from one of the places in IN that had 2" of ice hanging from the trees.. power went out had no heat no water or anything.. so right now my family and my brother's g.f are at my grandpa's house in Indy for heat and showers.. nice of us I know.. but omg it was so cold and I have never seen so many power lines on the ground in my life.. and plus to add more a tree fell on the back half of our house.. BLAH!.. I think the only thing I am enjoying about all this is that I havnt had school for the past two days and I wont tomorrow either! SWEET!.. and so that means.. NO BASKETBALL!.. which I am totally loving! I love being in love.. it gives a sense of protection.. it lets you know that some one if there.. :) Its offical! I am going on a cruise for springbreak and I am so excited.. me and jessica on a boat and headed towards Mexico.. PARTY CENTRAL!.. It is by far going to be the best week of my life.. and its only like 70 days away! Yeah I know I am a loser I am counting down the days! Anyone else have any plans they are super excited for!.. now that the days are getting closer I am trying to decide if I really want to move.. I mean its not far.. but I know I will loose contact with a lot of the ppl I talk to now.. but I mean if I move I know I wont miss many of them and the ones I do miss I'll try hard to keep in touch with.. so I mean should I really be afraid to move.. and I mean will it be hard for me to make new friends since I'm in high school and everyone basically has their little clicks and I have gone to the same school my whole life..hmmm..

Right now I am sitting here in ELC bored off my ass.. Game night tonight agaisnt Muncie Central.. oh boy.. last year they were really good so who knows about this year.. Last night Eli came over and we settled everything.. I love him so much.. lol Yeah I dont care if he pisses me off from time to time I cant live without him.. :) I hope everyone had a good break.. I sure know I did!

Right now I am sitting in my keyboarding class bored off my ass.. the teacher is a dick and really has no clue about anything.. he trys to crack jokes.. wow

yeah yesterday was def a really bad way to start off the new year.. But new year's eve night was a blast.. spent it with my girl April and just partied.. watched the hole first season of the OC.. lol Do you ever feel like sometimes your boyfriend really doesnt get what your saying.. like at all.. -------------------------------------- You are Summer Wheatley. You strive to be popularand wouldn't be caught dead wearing moon boots. Which Napoleon Dynamite character are you? brought to you by Quizilla

HAPPY NEW YEAR'S EVERYONE! :) hope everyone parties hardy and makes up for all those shitty days you had in 2004.. I sure know I am!

Well the days have pasted and its time to had back to the boring snow or Indiana..blah.. Texas was pretty great though.. Got to see a shyt load of houses tht are umm flipping huge and I would love to own and plus I got to get my tan.. while I miss my friends and everyone back home I would love to stay longer though.. the new step family all seems to be really cool.. and even though most my cusins with be a lot younger then me they are fun to joke around with.. over all I think I had a pretty good time down here and I am looking forward to heading back down here again soon hopfully.. Do you ever wish that you could tell your boyfriend how to act or shyt like that.. I sure know I do.. I hate it when guys act different just cause the boys are around.. they act like they run the relationship when all us ladies know that if it wasnt for us they would know absolutly nothing about women or anything else really impoortant in life.. god guys piss me off so much sometimes.. Half the school year is over I am so excited.. I cant wait to get out of hell hole yorktown.. Whats a good new years resolution that you can stick to longer then a week.. lol I feel like I need to change something but dont know what..hmm Umm yeah the picure.. yeah that is John.. my husband.. he just doenst know it yet.. :) Well I hope everyone has a great new years.. PARTY HARDY!!! <3 Megan

Omg this morning instead of waking up to the Indiana 2 ft of snow and -5 outside I woke up to the sun just about to rise and 70 degree weather.. I love Texas.. I never thought I would be able to leave him in Texas without me by his side for a week but hell its Texas and if he ruins it then atleast I got a great tan!.. lol no out of everything back home him I miss the most.. Chistmas was pretty good around my house.. did the church thing and then did the mom side of the family then the dad's and of course went with Eli to his family thing.. I dont know if I said something about it earlier but the hole story about me and Eli is tht a long time ago..about 6 months.. I was madly in love with him and he wasnt with me.. his friends always gave him a hard time cause we hung alot and he did some things tht I didnt really like.. well we broke it off and decided to be friends but when ever we were together we couldt help it.. so I decided tht I couldnt live tht way anymore.. so about a month ago or so he tells me tht he is sorry for everything and tht he really wants something with me no matter wht they say and all tht other sweet stuff.. totally feel for it all and to top off a great Christmas as soon as we went to drop himm off after church he told me tht he was ready for us to be together again so .. here I am back with him but I love him and want to be with him so.. AHHH.. alright I have a friend and her and I are like umm joined at the hip you could say.. we hang alot and like alot of the same things.. well the past week she has been in AL visiting her dad and now tht I am out of town its not tht bad but just to go figure when I talked to her last night she is staying even longer!! So when I get back to school.. hmm yeah she wont be there..argh! <3.. Megan P.S-- yeah I know.. John is dead sexy! He jusr doesnt know he is mine yet..

There's a pain that sleeps inside It sleeps with just one eye And awakens the moment that you leave Though I try to look away The pain it still remains Only leaving when you're next to me Do you know, that everytime you're near Everybody else seems far away So can you come and make them disappear Make them disappear and we can stay So I stand and look around Distracted by the sounds Of everyone and everything I see And I search through every face Without a single trace, of the person The person that I need Do you know, that everytime you're near Everybody else seems far away So can you come and make them disappear Make them disappear and we can stay Can you make them disappear? Make them disappear There's a pain that sleeps inside Sleeps with just one eye And awakens, the moment that you leave And I search through every face Without a single trace, of the person The person that I need Do you know, that everytime you're near Everybody else seems far away So can you come and make them disappear Make them disappear and we can stay He is all I think about day and night.. just the sight of his smile makes me weak.. the touch of his skin makes me want to freeze time.. his kiss.. the gunshot to my heart.. the ultimate.. the thing I cant live without.. how do you know if you are in love.. and if you are in love can you get out..

wow.. long night and had to get up early so some wack could look at my teeth.. Eli came over last night and we hung out for a while.. it was alot of fun.. we tried to watch the Last Sameri or how ever you spell it but.. deffintaly didnt get into tht one cause umm hello half the time they didnt speak English but oh well.. A couple of his goofy ass friends stop by and let me tell you for their age you would think they were ten years younger.. but yet they still make me laugh till I cry.. I got my hair did last night.. and at first I wanted just a small change not major but a change.. well down the hole tht idea went!.. lol.. I went from a dirty blonde to a rock'n'roll redish/brown.. I love it cause it is nothing like before and a huge change but I have a feeling ppl rnt going to adjust as fast as I did lol.. oh well they can get over it! The old man finally decided to do something for me once in my life now tht 15 years has past.. he is taking me shopping.. I dont think he realizes how much in debt he is going to be but oh well his lost.. lol.. I decided I am not just going to buy for me though.. he knows most of my friends so he should buy for them too..:) oh well Well I am out for the day! Hope everyone has a great day .. <3Megan