I told myself that I would make some changes But the more I change there's one thing that remains the same I can't seem to shake ya You seem to really have a hold on me And everytime that we break up We turn around and make up This can't go on now I gotta move on now It's not the fact that I don't love you no more But I gotta break this bad habit Can't take this bad habit no more.. Tonights the big night.. we play SouthSide and we are going to lose of course but its still a big deal to everyone.. Now that things arnt so complicated I am thinking about staying here but I havnt decided yet.. Last night Eli (the ex) came over to hang out and I really thought my feeling for him were over but I came to the conclusion when we took him home that I am clearly not.. I still love him but for now we are just friends .. again.. with me wishing for more.. Christmas break is in 19 days and it couldnt get here any sooner..