i feel so dead again... things keep falling apart.... i thought that it would b a good day but NOOOO i have 2 find out that i might not b able 2 c the 1 who holds my heart for quite some time(if ever again)...i feel like shit and just wished everything would stop on the blowing part..... i have 2 work a 7 tomorrow and im going 2 b feeling even more like shit... this aint kool..... y the fuck does this always happen??? i get 2 a point of bing happy(very hard 2 get to those points) and then ABSOLUTLY EVERYTHING goes down hill.... can any1 tell me that???? i dont think my eyes have been this brenched since my grandmother died.... i wish things would turn out better.... i wish i could disapear and b a hermit in the middle of the woods and died away from every1 and everything so that no1 has 2 know i even died.... never say good bye cause thats 2 hard.........C......U......LATER.....maybe.... neway :'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'( dont know if ill return cause its really not worth it nemore Lam Ka. Gedther Tim A. Dwyer to my love: i hope and pray that my heart will keep u happy and that u will 1 day find some1 better than i ever was so that u can completely forget about our days of happy and our days of sad.... i love u and will miss u greatly to my friends: i wish i could have been of more help and of greater times... i failed at both.... i hope that the days we had 2gether were fun and i hope that u may have better 1s to come....... to who ever cares: this is not a good bye note cause i HATE good-byes this is a "sorry" and a "have a better life" note i have never truely been a great friend but those who thought me as a friend were smaked when i left them and i am now appologizing and wishing them luck on future events.........:'(:'(:'(