i've been wondering if good things really do come to those who wait. i feel like i've been waiting a really long time to experience something like that, and so far.. it's just obstacle after obstacle. i'm not sure how long i've been in this funk of mine, but it's gone on far too long. i'm sick of being unhappy, or moody, or grumpy. i think perhaps if i got rid of every single male figure in my life, maybe perhaps things would be somewhat more simple. but no, i'm an asshole magnet. so here's another can of worms i'd like to open via sitdiary: aaron. now seriously, this is probably what's been under my skin the last few weeks. when i started working at zlt, i knew he had a girlfriend.. and it all started out as innocent fun with someone i may have had a little crush on. things got really intense between us really fast, while his new girlfriend was out sleeping with his ex girlfriend. apparently they were having a lot of relationship problems, which i guess didn't warrant a breakup. so i did that whole thing for a few months til he basically dumped me. then all the sudden, she's "engaged".. which he denied, and still does. now she lives with him and he pays her bills. but he still decides i'm this amazing girl he loves and thinks the world of. i don't get it, if you think i'm so sweet.. and i'm so much better than your girlfriend- then dump her. guys are so flippin retarded i don't get it. i swear, they're all out to hurt me. then i re read everything i just wrote and realize i have terrible judgment. really i should have seen all of this coming from the beginning. i'm just an idiot for thinking anything could ever be different. BLAH. when will i ever learn?