now, i know i shouldn't live in the past and i'm trying not to.. but i am SOOOOOO bothered by my ex boyfriend. what bothers me is that he is treating his new girlfriend the EXACT way he treated me, which in smoke and mirrors is great. HOWEVER.. what goes on behind closed doors is a different story. now i'll admit that i am disgusted with myself for sleeping with him when i knew he had a girlfriend, and it was wrong wrong wrong. finally i come to my senses and put an end to any sort of sexual relationship a week after they got back from a vacation to hawaii. and after like two weeks of not sleeping with him when we hung out, he drops the 'i broke up with her' bomb- which i knew was bullshit. i've tried to take the high road and let the new girlfriend know exactly what's going on [subtly] but if i know anything about anything, it's that she isn't going to believe me no matter what i say, and i'm just going to look like the jealous ex girlfriend. and trust you me, i am FAR from jealous. so that's what happened.. i made an ass out of myself for trying to help someone and save them everything that i went through. i'm just very disgruntled that someone i "loved" and believed was 100% loyal to me.. could cheat on his new girlfriend, who he says he "loves", with me. it just reaffirms every suspicion i ever had. not that the numerous emails from random girls telling me they were either dating or sleeping with him would have given it away, and surely not the naked pictures of his "friends" he had stored on his computer, and most especially not the underwear i found in his bed when cleaning it. PUH. i'm glad he is out of my life and hopefully it is for good. who wants to be friends with someone who did nothing but make you feel small and wrong about everything anyways?oh well, i guess i just hope karma really does exist and he gets what's coming to him in the end. i tried. :/