whoa man. cathy was completely right. i hate that. but, nick was a complete liar. asshole. he goes out with Brooke now. i dont have anything against her, because it's fair play. i would have done the same. i'm not sure. im going to try and be friends with him again. because that would be the mature thing to do. and the nice side of him is cool. manohman. i was so pissed last night.. then travis, and sean gregerson started hitting on me. haha. it was funny -sean. travis is a cooooool guy sean is just ..eh. wanting a piece of ass. then this morning john carter i/med me. we talked a little. he seems nice. hmm. last night brooke told me to call shane. bleh, i was going to.. but then i didnt. because i was scared. and then i got his i/m from last night telling me to call him. now i kinda wish i would have. hmm. i dont really want to get involved with him. i mean, i do. and i would like to get to know him. but he goes to warren and all.. and i just dont see things going far with that. but, getting to be friends would be nice, i suppose. i have like 3 online journals and a myspace. man, im pathetic. sheesh, this whole or'deal has lowered my self esteem a lot. i dont know. eating has become an issue again. and im not worried about it. and i dont care. because i want it. and im not sure why. becase the thought of it makes me crinkle my nose. mmk, so i have this new thing for the start of school. being openminded. im going to be friends with everyone. last year, well, i wasnt the nicest to some people. this year im not going to get into any arguments with anyone. summer school really made me see, how being kind to someone can affect them. so get ready, cause this is going to be hard work. i dont care anymore. about what they think. about what you think. im finally happy with who i am. [ not the way i look, but we're working on that one] so, here i go. i'm making highschool the best i can.