All right, let's see if this works for once. I wrote a huge entry last night and of course....it died. Quite pissed me off actually considering I was already in a pissed off mood. Probably better I didn't put it in here though because I felt really really depressed and bad. Right now I feel pretty good though. Partly because... Today we played basketball, (and FYI I really despise that song that I used for the title, but it fit) and it was me, bobby, raj, keith, omar, kyle, michael, and scott. I kinda like Raj I think....only problem is he's like one of my best friends and I am TERRIFIED about screwing that up. I already screwed something up with another one of my really good friends I dated because I guess he liked me a lot more than I thought. So, I'm kinda worried about Raj saying something and what I should say back, because I've been told he likes me many times. So I was on his team every game that we played today and it was a blast. We're playing again on Tuesday, I just felt really stupid in my jeans cuz it was warm. so I'm going to go get one of those long shorts that chicks can wear so I don't wear little skimpy shorts that I look bad in. Normally I wouldn't care but they decided to invite PEter, Jon (who's a junior and VERY cute), Doker ( senior, also not bad), and Chris (graduated last year). So I'm going to feel like even MORE of an idiot as the ONLY GIRL there. I would prefer to at least look kinda good...well as good as someone can look running around a court in the blazing hot sun. Anyways, today, on the walk home it was me, Raj, Scott and Omar. I kept knocking the ball away from Raj and he kepot coming after me and tickling me (his new found favorite weapon because I'm EXTREMELY ticklish) and it was just fun. If every day was like today and I could just feel normal and good about myself around him it would be amazing. But in school, I get freaked out whenever ppl come up and ask me about my relationships which inevitably leads me to breaking up with them because I am inscure and idiotic. I haven't even ever been kissed before and I'm not that ugly or anything....I just never let people get close enough to me. I will update on Tuesday to say what happened with that.................... Oh, and if anyone bothered reading all this, I offer my congratulations, I would have gotten bored/confused long ago. And if you could comment with anything, even to say I'm a huge idiot, that would be cool