heyz everyone.....well seems ike fukin bordom and bitchyness has caught up wit me....again..... today amber didnt come to skool and well seriously without her i am lost....luv ya amber.... it feels as if people i thought were my fwends arent and well that makes me feel really sad..... i think that all thyis shit started off wen me and tegs were havin a big fight.....and even though i love tegs like a bestie....i think she went and told every1 everything......and well its really no of their buissness.....i just wish that things could be how they were b4....everyone waz friends and we all hung out and had heaps of fun.......now as soon as i come everyone leaves and yeh.... today all ta peepz were sittin in ta art room when me and lauren came in everyone left ta desk and moved to ta other one across ta room.....then tegs and lauren went wit donna and zoe.... and well i just looked at tegan and thought well donna has her and donna dont want me to have anything to do wit her.....tegs started to walk back to me and said " this is so fukin hard" and i thought well it neva used to be hard like b4 ta holidays but now its "so fukin hard"... i have recently tried to be sooo nice to every1 and well i hav gained a couple of stuff like some of ta peepz i neva really talked to talk to me now and were all really good fwends, and i also feel way betta bout myself and how i talk to people.....but i dont get why im losing sooo much at ta same time.... :( anywayz i just wished that everything could b ta same again......but i think that i gotta start acceptin that donna will probably make tegs hate me b4 ta end of ta year......and i dont think i hav ta strenghth any more to try and convince her that i really value our friendship..... oh crap.....im sooo gonna cry now.... k im gonna go now cyaz all and alwayz rememba keep every moment a memory....coz one day wen u want it to b there it wont.... cyaz luv alwayz sadaf p.s- amber i got ur money!!!!