friday i went to teach cheer to sum girls in freshman year I pulled my stupid GROIN muscle haha its hard to walk but whatever. Im waiting for the pizza man currently. I had the best weekend. Jordan asked me out friday. I said yeah, but I don't even like him that much, I really have my heart set on someone else. Even though he's the sweetest guy and knows how to make a girl smile. But I don't know what wrong with me for the past month. It's like I talked to this guy I haven't in a while, and now im obssessed. I always talk/think about him. But day by day he cares less about talking to me. But whatever. If its ment to be that way its going to be like that. Yeah anways, me jordan and 20 other people went to west covina and hung out there. We went to the beach and drank. Hung out there. Than we went driving around. haha it was amazing. WE had a bon fire on the beach and just sat and cuddled with everyone. I wish i could share that moment with the guy i really love. sunday we went out to breakfast and hung out at the beach again. And i hate the little kids with their firecrackers and everything. it makes really annoying popping sounds. uuuugh it gets on my nerves. I quit HOOTERS, being a "hostess" as someone calls it. Bc everone there is like a redneck and its a scary bar. Yeah not for me. The girls there are like how much would u pay to sleep with my friend?? whores, the guys like 50. I don't fit in. whatever. Today im hanging out with my family. As stupid and corny as this might sound but since my dad passed away, how many days do i have left with my mom really? one day shes not going to be here, and than i can do everything i planned. But for now while shes around i can at least give her some time of day. Yeah so being love struck sux. theres not one day i dont wish i was with him. But i'll get over him, maybe. Jordan makes me feel happy i just feel bad because I dont like him all that much, and to him im everything. Lifes tought man.