HIIIIIII ok so im really happy being with Jordan. But i dont really wanna be with him. He just makes me feel happy whenever im sad. Im still obbsessed with that one guy. I love him more than ever now. and because he doesn't love me back, it makes me love him even more. Whenever something better comes into his life, i go away. im option number 2. he always goes to me for advice and gay shit. djk;djl ba screw you. I wish it was that easy to forget you. Anyways, today i have class, yuck. too much homework. Sunday im goiing to the beach. finally. yesterday me and jordan went to the beach, and we walked by this abandoned (sp) lighthouse, we went in it. scary as hell lol i hate the dark, so i just ran. haha. it was pretty fun. um ya than i got home, i couldnt fall asleep till 5 am. thinking about stufff. wgjkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkgf i hate this. life sucks dfsdalfldld. mmmmmmmmmm my dads staying home tomorrow, hes wayyy annoying. always teling me what to do. yucckk. im going somewhere tmrw for the whole day. i hate it how he culd care less about me. nice dad you are. i went swimming in the pool yesteday i swam with a really cool dino noodle, when u pressed on its arms water came out of its mouth. that was the highlight of my day. than me and jordan rode shopping carts yesterday @ walmart. haha people thought we were nuts but, i could careless. now im just obbsessing over him again evvery freaking minute, every second. ieiopejkljjkldfdfjkl. whatever im going bye