im so down at the moment i just can't pick myself back up i try to smile, laugh, be happy but i just can't. i get like this sometimes but i can usually get out of it within a few days but now its been over a week. i just want all the pain to go away but it won't. im seeing my boyfriend today which hopefully will help a bit, i don't tell him about how i feel, he just thinks im a little down but he can usually make me smile, i try extra hard for him because i don't want him to worry which he does alot about me. i know he cares i just don't know why, i don't understand how anyone could like me or even want to be near me.