london was good lots of nice clothes:D it's amazing how when im with my bf he can take me out of this world take me to a place full of happyness love and no ones crying, for a instant i just forget how messed up i am how i know ill hurt him in the end. birds sing, animals play, and im empty. that instant is so great but i always snap out of it come back to this reality. why am i like this?????? do you know??? can you help me??? how can i make everything just stop. stop stop stop! i want it to go away and NOT come back! i feel fat. im a big FAT piece of FATTY FAT lard. every inch of me is just FAT! i hate when i have my uncrontrolable urge to eat, eat, EAT! eat FAT! sit down have something to eat, finish that, get something else, and again and again and again...... and feel FAT! i guess my rant is over. sorry everyone. i'll be gone one day.