so here i am stuck in my horrible hell of a life. wahoo wat fun! NOT!!! ok so i was finally getting alright today and not being so down still a little but not as i was but then this happens! again! why is my life so fucked up?! WHY FUCKING WHY?! i can't even keep myself sane how the hell am i meant to help others! but of corse i have to ive always had to, its just what i do i put my problems aside and look after them. it would brake my mum if she found out how totally stupid ive been! im so angry with myself! why am i so fucked up?! what the fucks wrong with me?! im still trying to deal with crap from ages ago because ive just been blocking it out to the point where i just can't anymore(which is where i am now) and then it starts up again! i can't cope! i have to cope! i just have to forget about my stupid petty little problems and look after them.