Ok first entry took me friggin forever to get this thing to be black and it still doesnt even look that good. im so bummed i was supposed to go see a movie but that didnt exactly work out. this desert is jus such a downing place i jus wana sit inside (away from the heat) and dream about being at the beach. can anyone tell me why im not there? i dont have an answer for that one either... i wana go back to my 2nd home. but id miss my rents and sari but seeing justins deffintaly worth it. i duno what it is about this towm but theres def something in the air. ppl are so different down here then up in newport. odd but kinda funny to sit back and take everything in and look at this town from a different perspective. i love doing that from people. its really hard to get to a point where u can do that. its hard... i mean its jus such a task to pull urself out of a slum of shitty people, but when you do its fucking awesome to look back and be like wow i cant believe i did that shit... dont get me wrong i dont REGRET it i dont regret anything cept guys...but ya know you do what u gotta do...