ok its like midnight and i have cramps and a headache and i dont want to be in the desert nonetheless at justins parents house. im sorry but i wanted to go home and sleep in my own bed its ok though because ill get to do it tommorow night. and at least im getting my nails done and lunch wit my mom tommorow which should be nice god that woman gets on my last nerve sometimes i swear but its ok shes my mom and i cant ever change it so might as well get over it now cuz if i dont ill have a long time to stir over it. moving on, so i argue with my boyfriend when im drunk and were ass holes to eachother when someone is with us 24 7 for like four days when were used to being alone im sorry but i tend to get a lil bitchy when im not by myself sometimes espcailly when im about to start my dot im really bitchy so i argue and its mistaken as being in a bad relationship. ya know if i seriuosly thought i was in a bad relationship i think id help myself out and at least take some time away from them rather then be stuck outta town with them 247 its not like i dont know what im getting myself into by going back outta town with him. it really shouldnt be that big of deal i mean ok if i was literally geting beat to a pulp every damn day then ya kno i think id think about leaving but i was drunk and being argumentative. and having people er person tell me that i should reconsider the relationship is kinda like ok well ya know its my relationship. i dont think theres a time in any relatipnship rather it be the perfect little house on the prarie relationship or fucking beyonce and jay z im not gona get out of a relaionship im not ready to get out of. ill be soo bummed and jus want that back even more and then put myself back into another unhealthy relationship thats why women are in unhealthy relationships is beacause ppl force them to leave and then theyre forever yearning that missing peice that they feel they were stripped of and so having something so precious taken away you your going to want to replace it with a duplicate. there fore another unhyealthy relationship. to be mentaly and physically sane after the beakup you have to decide you need to get away on ur own. ur not gona do anything you dont want to . no one will you wouldnt want to if u were told to if anything youd want to rebel and do the oppesite whether it was conciously or not but im not about let someone else dictate over my life and tell me how shitty my relatinship is. we argue because were in love and pissed that the other would be so retarded. whatever i mean its my life and if i really get fucked in the end which i highly doubt i will ill take it back and say they were right but that doent mean that my next relationship wont be unhealthy. we shall see what the outcome is and wether or not my theory is right.