As hard as i try i cant seem to get him out of my head all the short little memories we had within that 4 month period of 3 weeks of having human interaction with each other and the in between when we had good long conversations online.But I'm still a little fullish to think that things could of gone on a lot longer. He is stuck in a life where focus is on him and his future and i just wasn't in it as much as i told myself i was. It was just a little moment for him like the rest he has had after his ex-girlfriend. I don't even see myself as a good friend of his as much as he tells me that I m. I have learned from the past month of living on couches that what a person says is most likely not what they truly feel unless they can show you other wise with their actions. honesty is hard to come by even a stranger lies what does a stranger have to lie about.. Just so it doesn't make what they are actually thinking look bad.. well sorry to bust the bubble but there are little bad things we all think it only makes it easyer for both if the truth is spoken from the get go. this is why relationships don't come my way because Im always focus on the one that says he will call because when they are around they show as though they are interested so I'm giving a little hope. I cant seem to turn away when hope shows through just a little. so i shall no longer rely on hope but yet rely on what is... what action if no action takes place i shall not enter. I'm putting what i though was wise in a box then burning it.I cant trust my gut anymore.