i expected more… but could i really of thought both would be at fault. is that a funny thing to think. to want to hope for something that isn’t worth it. what a silly thing my head does sometime. it clings to hope so tight that reality is something to laugh at, its the funniest joke to ever cross the layers of my brain.if it was so sink in the bottom for awhile i might sometime notice a little bit of it around. then my belly would get this funny tight feeling and my mouth would chuckle and burst. i will say itsn’t reality just a waste of time. i guess you can say its not worth it so i’m going to sit back and let my mind over take this goddamn funny reality to make it something worth living in towards the back of it all.i will sit and watch maybe join in every once in awhile but in the end ill have something to laugh,cry,and be excited about at the end of the day even if its real or not at least i’m feeling such things.