Listening to: death vessels
I ask myself,Im i becomeing a unintersting person socially,Im i a sleep relief pill for others and myself. I get so wierd around others at moments that my whole being runs right into my body and hides itself in this little secret hole that i cant even seem to find.where does my personality go sometime it feels so far away and i become a blank sheet of paper tucked away in a novel on a book shelf. when will these feeling subside,this world feels so small that i feel sufficated in it.I need to find a high place where im hidden in the foggy clouds.all thes thoughts on paper and in my head collide and a lose track on the ones that should be forgotten and the ones that should be found.when i feel things start to make sence i find out im just patending it does in my head so i can forget about it for awhile.
it always seems to come back,sometimes it makes me sad then others mostly just makes me confused and worried. however i still have stranght to fight whatever this might be.
listen to this album from start to finish with little to no rest in between songs. i suggest that you lie in bed heavy with thought. allow the weight of music to push you far below the surface of everything depressing. hide in that pocket until you think of nothing else, but what you are hearing. trust that by the end of this album, you will come out feeling anew. it is a slow crawl out certainly, and you would have to piece yourself back together, but it is well worth it. report back to us your experience. thank you
p.s. i read in today's news that polaroid "stopped making film packs last year."
http://www.nbcbayarea.com/news/business/Let-the-Gadgeting-Begin-inVegas.html
a sad passing shame
".there are parts of me that i myself cant dig out. they have jammed themselfs so far into my body that the more i reach for them the farther they go"
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