Well, as much as I thought the Kristin and Kyle saga was over, it continued...and it's been amazing. We started talking again in January 2007. Actually, it was weird because to get my attention he followed me out to my friend's car and almost to my house. But the next day we discussed everything and we began talking. Of course I told him I still had feelings for him and after an emotional afternoon, he pushed me away again. March came around and he saw me running through the halls of school the day this little girl fell off her bike and chipped two teeth. He came outside and apologized for pushing me away as much as he did, and told me I'm cute. We started to be friends again and even attempted dating. That relationship lasted 3 days, but I made him promise me he wouldn't push me away again. And you know what? He hasn't yet, so I don't think he's going to. Especially since I went to his Graduation (I'm so proud of him!) and I went to his Graduation party (which consisted of me, him, and his family, so I've met his family =]). Kyle and I are doing alright, considering the fact that he's got a job now and is never home. We still talk, just not as much. And he's worried about school already; my good little smart person hehe! Well, that's the update of the Kyle and Kristin saga Until next time, I shall leave you with this: [[Kristin&&Kyle The Flirt&&The Hentai Best Friends,With Love♥]] Oh, and one final note: I love Kyle Jameson Adriance more than anything else in my life right now. My exfiance screwed me over one too many times and I pushed him away (didn't think I'd do that, did ya?). So there you have it =D ♥*

Heh, I have returned my my absence of sitDiary to give you all an update of my "progress" with that one guy I was attempting to go out with. In June, he decided that he liked me and wanted to date me. We were a couple for a grand total of 16 1/2 hours, which was the best 16 1/2 hours of my life at that present moment. That afternoon he gave me his phone number, and I called him that night. We talked for an hour, in which he said he'd always be there for me and he tried to teach me how to meditate. Unfortunately, on June 29, he moved to Johnstown and we didn't talk for two weeks. That was the worst two weeks of my life but then... July, he called me and we began talking again each night for almost 2 to 3 hours at a time. He yet again promised to always be there for me and I felt loved and special. He was there for me when I got in alot of trouble by my parents; he listened to me cry for 2 hours that Saturday and for that I'm eternally grateful xD Sadly, though, I was in summer school and a play, and his parents didn't like the fact that he was always on the phone (even though he was 18 at the time), so we had to cut our phone calls short. Nothing after 10 or 10:30pm-ish, depending upon if his parents caught him on or if mine caught me on. Heh, he made my summer worthwhile during July... August, I declared my undying love for him, and he broke down in tears, asking why he couldn't love me back, and yet again, promised to always be there for me. I settled for him as my best friend and I couldn't have been happier. September, school started and everything went downhill. On the second day of school, he pushed me away. I was a wreck; I couldn't sleep, I couldn't eat, and I didn't want to talk to anyone ever again. We had a complete closure on a Sunday at 5:50pm, I cried alot. But, I thought I was getting over him but then... October, he came bounding downhill by my school and we talked for almost a half-hour. I thought we'd continue talking forever but... He pushed me away on October 20, 2006. I was called into the guidance office only to see him having a panic attack. The guidance counselor told me that it is in "his best interest that we no longer associate", so from that point on, we haven't talked or looked at each other or even breathed in each other's direction. It's been difficult, but I'm almost completely over him. I was forced to but it worked. I have moved on sorta...I now discovered that I love my exfiance =X hehe, yes, he's alot better than this guy and he'll actually always be there for me. I'm slowly realizing that he was just a waste of my time... To Kyle Jameson Adriance (yes, that is his name): I'm sorry I wasted all your time and stressed you out to the point of which we cannot speak to each other. Actually, it was your idea to split so blahh~! Well, there you have it; the complete story of the Kristin and Kyle saga. And now I shall move onto something new...xD

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Well, even though I'm wearing a low-cut shirt and I figured he'd notice, he did...and for some reason, I didn't mind at all. I just hope he'll talk to me again. I really want to get to know him more than I already do. He and I like the same show...I watched it Saturday night (Ghost in the Shell: Stand Alone Complex) and completely fell in love ♥* What will it take for him to notice me for me and not for the facade I put on to get his attention? I could be dressed up in a floor-length dress with stilletos and full make-up and the guy still wouldn't notice me and also I'd feel uncomfortable...and that's not who I am. I like feeling comfortable with myself and who I'm becoming and I never thought I'd change for a guy, ever. I really hope we talk again... when...?*

Today I am dressed rather nicely, although the shirt's a little too low-cut for my taste, and he already walked by me and glanced. Since we talked yesterday, I've had this good feeling that this is like a new door opening for me and we can be friends or something. But usually my "good feelings" end up backfiring and turning out horribly for me, and then I'll become immensly depressed and no one will want to save me, especially not a certian guy who's certian friend came out of the psychward about a week ago. I just wish (and hope and pray) that this guy I'm swooning over decides to swoon over me because I think he's amazing and extremely attractive and we'd be perfect for each other...* *sigh* won't that rock?

HE TALKED TO ME TODAY!! And it's not even like it was an Earth-shockingly important conversation...he was just wondering why I wrote him notes awhile ago. So I told him honestly that I had feelings for him and wanted to get to know him better... *sigh* Life is lookin' up for me (and possibly us) yet...he is still a mystery wrapped in an enigma...=/

He's right in my view; I'm staring at him as I type. The strange thing is I can feel when someone's staring at me, but I guess he can't because he never looks over to see where I am. Not like he has any reason to. I mean, yeah, I really like--almost love--him but I know he feels nothing towards me, and that's where the pain is coming from. The only time he even glanced at me was when I was putting my CD player away...or was he staring as I was almost in tears? And if so, why didn't he stop me? Anyone else would've tapped me and made me smile. Although sometimes looking at him makes me smile...well, we'll see how the rest of the day goes...I'll talk to one of his friends (don't worry, Friend #1 is taken)...

Ugh, why do I fall so easily? Is that a really bad flaw or am I just easy like that? Just as I'm starting to get into another guy, out pops my exfiance and tells me that if we were in the same town we'd still be together. I was just starting to get over him...why does he do this to me? I really like the other guy, but I know I'll always love my ex because he was my first real serious love. And that's something that will never go away, I know that. I had our wedding all planned out then he goes and dumps me...what's up with that?! So, then school started and I saw the other guy and now it seems as though "ex" has popped back up. What, just because it seems like he's single he wants me again?! I don't think so. I'm not in the mood to be hurt again. He really gets me though sometimes. Like, there's not a day that goes by where I don't think of him and I know if I get the other guy to date me I'd feel as though I was hurting my ex but it would pass eventually. I always wanted my ex to be my first time having sex, though, you know? Like, I really loved him and I want to prove it somehow. I'd stand on his doorstep in the pouring rain wearing nothing but a trench coat and scream out the words to our song and he probably still wouldn't take me back. Oh, well. It'll pass...this whole thing will pass...I hope...soon...=/

If he only knew what I felt for him...I think he'd open up and let me in and love me for all that I am like I love him. Why are guys so stupid?! I mean, this guy is a notorious - ; if I were him and some liked me, I'd definitely scoop her up and make her my own. I may hurt her in the process, but at least I wouldn't be single anymore. I don't know anymore. This guy just rips me up inside and make me want to cry because he's just perfect; completely flawless, with beautiful features and a great mind. He's also into . Maybe if I transform myself into a character, he'd keep staring at me and take me out. I doubt it though. He's so closed off and cold...I want to open him and make him happy. Is it possible? Can anyone help me with my mission?

Wellll....it's been too long since I last updated either of my sitDiarys so I figured one was due! I've been broken up with Donny since August and yes he proposed to me but don't think we'll be getting married anytime soon *tear* oh well! I really do still love him. He got over me rather quickly though so I can't do anything to stop my pain in my shattered heart. But I digress... I move to Fort Plain in July 2005, which is why Donny and I were again. He used to live in FP but now lives in Gloversville. Umm...not too much else, except for the fact that I miss Amsterico and there's this guy out here named Kyle that's just a total hottie but will never date me because he thinks he's better than all women. Butt-crax, I know. Well, check out these if ya wanna see me: http://livejournal.com/users/shesaysblellow/ http://myspace.com/imperfectdj http://www.xanga.com/neoTrinityxx http://greatestjournal.com/users/p4n1cpr0n3/ http://malcolmrpg.proboards76.com/index.cgi http://tagworld.com/littlemissamylee

Give Me Novacaine - Green Day Take away the sensation inside Bitter sweet migraine in my head Its like a throbbing tooth ache of the mind I can't take this feeling anymore Drain the pressure from the swelling, The sensations overwhelming, Give me a long kiss goodnight and everything will be alright Tell me that I won't feel a thing So give me Novacaine Out of body and out of mind Kiss the demons out of my dreams I get the funny feeling, that’s alright Jimmy says it's better than here, I’ll tell you why Drain the pressure from the swelling, The sensations overwhelming, Give me a long kiss goodnight and everything will be alright Tell me that I won't feel a thing, So give me Novacaine Oh Novacaine! Drain the pressure from the swelling, The sensations overwhelming Give me a long kiss goodnight and everything will be alright Tell me Jimmy I won't feel a thing, So give me Novacaine (God, I love this song!)

There's this girl, and she has a sitDiary as well and all she keeps writing is "I love this guy" and it's like "no, you don't because you don't even know what love is!" I know who she is; I'm just not going to name names in here...I'll do that in my LJ in a PRIVATE entry. Maybe I'm just jealous because I asked her boyfriend out last school year and he turned me down but yet he'll go for her?! What does she have that I don't?! It's just...*growls* Why did Donny have to move!? *soft growl* I miss him like crazy!! =,( *FREE THE PSYCHO!* - NM (May)

Yes, it is I, Kristin aka takeitaway. And this is my new sitDiary...yes, I know I have too many journals but hey...they keep me busy =) *sigh* My HTML on this is perfecto! Although I really wanted a different song for my scrolly thingie...*goes to ponder that* I miss my Donny =,( *FREE THE PSYCHO!* - NM (May) Oh, FYI- New LiveJournal (if you've got one, add me please =)