Ugh, why do I fall so easily? Is that a really bad flaw or am I just easy like that? Just as I'm starting to get into another guy, out pops my exfiance and tells me that if we were in the same town we'd still be together. I was just starting to get over him...why does he do this to me? I really like the other guy, but I know I'll always love my ex because he was my first real serious love. And that's something that will never go away, I know that. I had our wedding all planned out then he goes and dumps me...what's up with that?! So, then school started and I saw the other guy and now it seems as though "ex" has popped back up. What, just because it seems like he's single he wants me again?! I don't think so. I'm not in the mood to be hurt again. He really gets me though sometimes. Like, there's not a day that goes by where I don't think of him and I know if I get the other guy to date me I'd feel as though I was hurting my ex but it would pass eventually. I always wanted my ex to be my first time having sex, though, you know? Like, I really loved him and I want to prove it somehow. I'd stand on his doorstep in the pouring rain wearing nothing but a trench coat and scream out the words to our song and he probably still wouldn't take me back. Oh, well. It'll pass...this whole thing will pass...I hope...soon...=/