I don't know what's up with me lately. I've been kind of... sad? No... numb. Yeah... numb is good. It's just been really... weird at school. It used to be a haven... and now it's not... it's weird and I can't explain it. I need to change this layout. So bad. ♥

So. I had my 1st day on Monday. I'm so HAPPY! My buddy Justin is in my history class and Mark is the senior project! Oh my gosh I love Mark, he's so funny. When he walked in the first day, I almost hugged him. =P What a loser am I. =D Still too angry to write about last entry. Well, I must go. Alexis

I love this song. All I have to say right now is love sucks. Men suck. No, BOYS suck. Men. Boys. That's better. They're boys because that's how they act. No details right now. Too upset. I'm begging you to be my escape. School starts in 5 days. This sucks. Have I mentioned I hate my life? No I said love sucks. Rawr. Maybe when I'm in a better mood, I'll explain what happened. Rawr. Alexis

I have just re-discovered Rilo Kiley. I love this band. I want this CD. I want to go to a concert. I want to form a band like Rilo Kiley. I want a voice like the lead singer's. Maybe I'll name my daughter Rilo Kiley. (Haha) This song is pretty. I wish I had a buck so I could download it. He will never leave you for me... There is no excuse for not updating. Sorry. I'm a lazy bum. =( Forgive me? ♥

God. I've been so... bleh... lately. All I've done is watch TV and go on the computer and eat and sleep. That's IT. So, I decided I love you guys and that I would update. Well. I did. ♥

I had soccer practice yesterday. My whole body hurts. I can't feel my knees. That's about it.

Damn Warped Tour! This year, they're not coming to Hershey. They did last year, but not this. GAH! They're going to Scranton and Burgettstown. Scranton's too far for me, and I don't even KNOW where Burgettstown is! Oh well. Billie, you'll just have to scream, "I LOVE YOU!" to Gerard for me. =) Or anyone else who's going. So... yeah... tomorrow Courtney and I are going to her sister's soccer practice because we're bored out of our skulls and she has to give me my birthday gift. And I bought her something at the beach. It's a fairy diary (she likes fairies and she likes to write). What else? Oh yeah. My dad is now my soccer coach. He's always kind of been, but now he's HEAD coach. Courtney's dad and Mike's dad are the assistants. Remember Mike? If not, let me refresh your memory: I had the biggest crush on him (still kind of do) and he probably hates my guts. So... yeah. Nicole came over last night and we walked to Rutter's. I almost bought a trucker hat that had a liger on it, but it was 10 bucks and all I had was four. So I bought a pin that says VOTE FOR PEDRO. So yeah... ???

I'm baaaaaaaaaaaaack... Well, not really. I'm back in Pennsylvania, but I'm in State College. Let me tell you how New Jersey was... Well... to put it nicely, I need a vacation from my vacation. It wasn't THAT bad, but my whole family was just annoying the hell out of me. Except for my dad. He felt the same way I did: My brother is a spoiled brat who talks too much and doesn't know the words SHUT UP, my mom is a shopaholic and is late for EVERYTHING, and my grandma was just cooped up in the hotel room, writing thank you notes the whole week. I think she was outside for a total of 5 hours put together. AND then I'm stuck with my brother for three and a half hours and when he's not talking about some stupid video game, he takes a nap on my leg. Then we get to State College and I try to go to bed in "the pink room" because it has air-conditioning and my grandma can have her room back and my brother can sleep in the same room he always sleeps in when we're here. Well, despite all the Jesus statues in the room, I am shivering like crazy because all I hear is something scratching the floor and it sounds like fingernails and I'm being super paranoid. Then, all of a sudden, my door creeeeaks open. It doesn't fly open, it doesn't just open, but it creeeeeeeeaks ever so slowly. I'm convinced that Michael Myers (from Halloween) is gonna kill me, so I'm not moving. Then I take off my eye mask and see that it's just my brother. But I don't have my contacts in and my vision sucks, and he's wearing a neon green t-shirt and he looks like an alien with the long skinny necks and big heads. So I let out a scream and he says that he's sleeping in my room tonight. I tell him no, I was here first and what's wrong with the room he usually sleeps in. Turns out, no A/C. So here I am trying to sleep and my pain-in-the-ass brother is screaming at me to get the hell out of the room and I am forced to sleep in my grandma's room, where she has the A/C on to 12 degrees and she hogs all the fucking covers. And on top of all of this... my iPod is out of juice. Sigh..... I complain too much. I know. ???

I'm going to the beach on Sunday and will be there until Friday. Then on Friday, we're driving up to State College because my parents are meeting up with some friends for the weekend. So I'll be gone for a little over a week. Gag. Luckily, I have my iPod. That will keep me sane. Music will keep me sane. That and TV. Katie wants to be friends with me again. I'm not so sure. God.... I wish we were in school. I'm bored. My mom is so STUPID. The computer table has a pull out thing for the keyboard and the edge is sharp and I accidentally cut my arm on it and now my mom thinks I'm depressed and cutting myself. Which I'm not. People these days. ???

Today was pretty depressing. My friend Stacey's mom died on my birthday. So a bunch of us from the soccer team came and I told Stacey she could call me whenever she felt like it. Given the circumstances, she and her dad are the bravest people I know. Never again will I tease Stacey with "Stacy's Mom." Then I got my hair cut and my eyebrows waxed. Ugh... fun fun, let me tell ya. It's kind of short... I still have my "emo" bangs. =P Then we drove to BJ's to pick up the film. Turns out I turned in the camera with the Christmas pictures and not my school pictures. And all the other pictures are dark because I forgot to put the flash on, so they all suck. And my "emo" pictures I took w/ Jami came out too blurry. And my school pictures are still undeveloped. Damn it. Um. What else...? Well, these preppy guys were staring at me at Taco Bell. They were kind of cute, even though they weren't my type. I changed my layout. For once, I actually like it. =) Very vintage-y. You must be dreaming a l e x i s ::Edit:: I just found my digital camera. I don't know why any of you would care. But I did.

My birthday part 2 Went to Panera Bread with my 'rents. (Ha... that's something I've never called them.) Ate because well I'm a pig. =) Then we went to this place called Five Below (basically a nicer Dollar Store). I got two pins: Rockstar and YOU SUCK. (I love that one.) Then we went to Borders because they e-mailed my mom a coupon for 25% off a CD or DVD. So she made, like, a hundred copies, and I got TWO CDs. Sum 41 "Chuck" and Green Day "International Superhits!" Then we went to the mall, but I felt sick so we went home... then drove up to my grandma's house. SHE GOT ME TWO CAKES!!! No lie... I wish I had a picture of it. Then today we drove back and I got my school schedule. Semester The First ? 20th Century History ? Gym/Test Taking Skills/DRIVER'S ED ? Lunch/Study Hall ? Bio ? English Semester The Second ? Algebra ? Spanish 2 ? Comp/Comm ? Study Hall/Lunch ? Photography Woo... That's it. ?

Yesssssssss... I'm fifteen! Sweeeeeeeeeeet... I might grab a couple friends and maybe we'll go see Dark Water or something. Hey... funny thing happened yesterday... you know how Katie was super mad at me? She commented on my xanga last night, wishing me a happy birthday. ??? I think that girl is bipolar. So I wrote back in her xanga, "hey! i'll be at the beach on your birthday-" (her's is in 10 days) "-looking at hot surfer dudes-" (i don't think there are that many surfer dudes in Jersey but who knows? maybe this year there will be a bunch of hot ones =D ) "-so party like crazy for me!" If you carry out this way things are better if I stay... I'm so PROUD of myself. I'm learning how to play "Helena" on my guitar. So far... I suck... but it's all good! So I'm gonna get going and just comment random diaries. Maybe change my layout. It was punk, yeah it was perfect, now it's awful. ? Alexis

I know I'm all "I don't need a boyfriend" right now, but I saw this survey on one of my friend's livejournal sites and had to take it. 21 Things I Want In A Lover 1. Converse on his feet 2. A sweet guy 3. He better like my music, because music is my life 4. Playing in a band would be cool 5. Not like ole what's-his-face 6. Curly and/or shaggy hair is awesome 7. Able to put up with me and my mood swings 8. He can emo, I guess. 9. A sense of humor 10. Romantic 11. Optimistic 12. Sweet... I think I said this already 13. Smart... I don't want to be with the male version of Jessica Simpson! 14. Someone who can laugh WITH me 15. Funny... I think that goes under sense of humor 16. Has to be taller than me 17. Supportive 18. Someone who can pick me up when I'm down... literally and emotionally 19. Someone who can put up with my blonde moments 20. he has to be LOYAL 21. Has to put up with the fact that I can't finish everything Yeah. I'm mad at my mom. For the past year, I wanted to get the Hole "Celebrity Skin" album ever since I learned that I could go to the local library and check out CDs. She said that Dad would have a fit. I found out that he wouldn't have a big deal over it. And for the past year, when I need some "Celebrity Skin", I COULD have been listening to it?! I think my mom is afraid I'll become like Courtney Love. I DO want a band, but I've seen some of the stuff she's done and uh... no. And I think she's afraid that I'll marry a suicidal musical genius. To put it simply, she doesn't want me to get hurt. I'm really tired. Stargirl- READ IT, DAMN IT! Angus, Thongs, and Full-Frontal Snogging- THIS IS MY DIARY IF I WAS BRITISH. She dressed like a freaking olive and got laughed at. =) I've probably done that once or twice. I love "Hands Clean." This is my favorite song off this album. Well, I like "Precious Illusions" too. Hell, I like Alanis. Even with short hair and her "love rocks" attitude. I like her "8 Easy Steps" song. But the title makes me think of a rehab center with "8 Easy Steps" to recovery. I'm so mean. One of these days, I'm going to write an entry on here and use song titles. Till then. ?, Alexis

SUMMER!! It's my first day and I: * have been sunburnt * spent the day with a friend * consumed my weight in junk food * have decided to change my outlook on life * plan to stay up until 2 AM. That's all for now. SUMMER!!!! A.l.e.x.i.s Edit: I have made a promise that I will not be all "woe is me cause I don't have a boyfriend." Next year, I'm going to be different and if people don't like it, they can kiss my ass. Thought I'd like to share that.

UPDATE!!! Thursday: Our one acts ROCKED!!!! Courtney was there, Elaine was there, my old math teacher Miss Zimmerman was there, and I DIDN'T FORGET MY LINES!!! *takes a bow* Thank you thank you! Friday: Uh... nothing really happened. Saturday: Saw The Sisterhood of The Traveling Pants. I officially want to be Tibby. Sunday: Drove down to Philly for my cousin's graduation party. I haven't seen a lot of my family in (almost) 8 years. But it's all good. Today: First block was theater arts. Since that's an elective, we played PARK BENCH!!! I love park bench!!! I went up and oh my gosh, it was hilarious. I was "hiding" from the paparazzi because..... I invented post-its. =P Then I signed Dan's shirt. =P Then I had my Spanish final. I knew most of the stuff. That's all, kiddies. ? Alexis

So excited!!! Tomorrow we're performing our one-acts!!! Courtney and Nicole are coming. You know who might come? Mike. I know, you guys are probably sick of hearing about him, but I wish he would just go away. I'm so sick of him. I was in love with a preppy boy and I'm just some emo girl he wouldn't give the time of day to. So why do I care so much? Today was not awesome. I got out of Bipolar Woman's class to go to the orthodonist. Turns out I have perfect teeth, because I, Alexis, am a good girl and I actually wear those damn retainers. (I think it's because they're clear with blue glitter.) BUT my wisdom teeth have no room. So... I need surgery. Fun, fun. =( But then, I had my fitness test in health. SO easy, a monkey with an IQ of 4 could do it. Bleh. I hope Courtney can make it. She should. If not, I will hunt her down and make her come. I'm gonna get going now. I love you all!!! I will remember you all in my acceptance speech! ? Alexis

I had the coolest dream last night. Do you ever have those dreams where you wake up and your heart is pounding because it excited/scared/confused you so much? That was my dream. I was in some horror movie kind of dream but it was me, Courtney, and some redheaded girl named Sara. These FBI agents dudes were after us and we hid in this creepy old cellar. They threatened to kill us if we left the house. But they evantually left the house. But we had to unplug this computer thing in able to run, so I did, and we hid in this cemetery. But suddenly, the corspe of Mike (who I wish would really die) came alive and then.... I woke up. How anticlimatic. ? a.l.e.x.i.s

Rawr. I had my last soccer game today in 86 degree weather. We won, but just barely. 4-0. I COULD HAVE HAD TWO GOALS, but the first one went off the post and the second one I could have headed in if their fucking goalie didn't punch me in the nose. Then some girl called me a slut. Aww, love ya too. >.plowed over this one girl and I go, "Calm down, tiger." And she goes in a sarcastically young voice, "Rawr. I'm a tigger." That was so great. Then we went to the clubhouse and had ice cream! Yay. Then I threw Goldfish into Courtney's mouth and at Mike's picture when his team won some Tide tournament a couple years back. He was such a nerd. But not like a hot nerd, like a Seth Cohen indie-emo nerd. But not like a smart super-geek nerd. Just kind of... a nerd. And yet, I was in love with that nerd. But no more. Anyway...Courtney has dubbed me an emo kid. Because I listen to: Dashboard Confessional Taking Back Sunday My Chemical Romance Bright Eyes... and some other stuff. Stupid metalhead, what does she know? =) Anyway. I'm gonna get going now. I have to figure out what song I'm going to buy. ? Alexis

Yesterday was offically the WORST day in the history of my life. Besides meeting ole what's-his-face. WARNING: I WILL TALK ABOUT BODILY FUNCTIONS. IF YOU DON'T WISH TO HEAR THIS, THEN SKIP DOWN TO THE NEXT PARAGRAPH. I APOLOGIZE GREATLY. I've been feeling like shit the entire week. Friday, I'm surfing the crimson wave in Spanish. No big deal. But I need some chocolate. So I go to the candy machines... NO FREAKING CHOCOLATE. AND, TURNS OUT I ONLY HAVE 40 CENTS IN NICKELS. So then I have gym. Fun fun. (Not.) Since it was raining, we had the dreaded Presidental Fitness Test. And she made me run when I was extremely crampy and just had lunch of stuffed shells. We went to the mall and I stocked up on the junk-ified goods. Sweet. Tomorrow, I have my last soccer game against the one team who really sucks. (We kicked their ASS eight to one. And our team SUCKS!) So yeah. My horrible day. But today, it's just relaxation. ? Alexis

Oops. Today, we had dress reharshals for our one-acts and it was the seniors' last day. So Jami and I (well mostly Jami) were talking about how Rachel couldn't make it. And Molly was in the bathroom and heard everything we said and told Rachel and now Rachel pissed off at Jami, but not me, which is good and bad at the same time... Sigh. High school drama. We also had sophomore elections today. Martha was running for vice president. HA. No one is going to vote for her. Maybe I should run next year. I wonder if I would win. Would any of you vote for me? ALEXIS FOR YOUR '06-'07 YEAR. Grr... annoying sibling over shoulder. KUNG POW! OK, now he's gone. =) So... I gotta change the layout. I like it, but it's kind of getting old. So. Yeah. Have a good day. ? Alexis