It's been a long time since I've written. Winter is really getting me down though! Man. I've decided New Hampshire sucks a little more than I thought PA did. This past summer and break made me fall in love with PA all over again and now all I want to do is go home. Thank goodness I have Dave and the other girls I've begun to hang out with more. It's the only thing that keeps me going. Also, I found that sometimes just talking about the things that bug you can be good because sometimes you find that other people are thinking the same thing and then things arent so bad. Right now I'm procrastinating on writing a paper. I'm really good at that. Procrastinating that is. Anyways, so much for today. *later days*

Well another year! I'm now 19! It was a wonderful birthday and I must say, getting 2 dozen roses was certainly a surprise. Thanks Dave :) Things are going well though. I love SUMMER!! I really really do. I love being home and doing whatever I want pretty much whenever I want. It's lovely :) The jobs are going well too. I did some facepainting today. It was sooo busy. I was tired! Then we went to Piper for dinner. I love that Caesar salad. Seriously it's amazing! :) tata for now!

The railroad job has been good so far. Pay day is this friday! (yay!) I can now be a ticket agent, parlor car attendant or gift shop clerk. A job of many trades, always interesting. Dave has been calling me letting me know where he is in America on his bike! It sounds like he's having fun and I'm so jealous of all the places he gets to see!! However, I am excited for his return. I will be 19 soon...yay! That's such a weird age. THere's not much special with 19. When people ask they say, oh ok. When you're 20, it's "damn one more year!" then once you're 22, etc. it's just not exciting really anymore. At least that's what i've found. beach day tomorrow with ashley to the jersey shore :) cant wait for that. Until later!

Summer break has started and so far it's been very relaxing. Dave texts me every now and then letting me know how he is and where he is on his Cross-country bike trip for Habitat for Humanities. It's so great he's doing that. I've been exploring my artistic side lately and today i washed the lovely Camry. It's nice now (well as nice as it will ever be) and I cant wait to go out tomorrow in it! This summer I'm going to try to get a new digital camera. I really want a Nikon I think.... We'll see. I start training for my job Saturday and I'm still waiting on the Railroad. It would be great if I could work there too! If not i might just break down and work at Gap or some other restaurant. *sigh* Mom is already giving me crap about work. Whatever. I'm doing what I can. Anyway, later days!

When people change and feelings change, telling them is the hardest thing to do. It tore me up inside and yet I feel a little more honest with myself for doing so. I've officially experienced breaking up. It's the worst feeling in the world. life goes on though

Cancer - Your Love Profile Your positive traits: You're intuitive enough to know what's going wrong in a relationship early on A total sweetheart - you're often the most caring person anyone knows You are a generous and devoted parter to whoever you fall in love with Your negative traits: Insecurity - you tend to need a huge amount of comforting from your partner You tend to be overly sensitive and easily hurt, which make loving you difficult It's difficult to predict your moods. One minute you're up - the next you're down. Your ideal partner: Someone equally sensitive, who wants to take time to get to know you deeply Dreams of an everlasting love - complete with marriage and a family Loves to take care of you. Being a good cook and masseuse doesn't hurt! Your dating style: Slow. You enjoy dates that last all day, with plenty of time to talk and get to know one another. Your seduction style: Quite tender and loving, once you are comfortable in your relationship. Coy. You tend to play it cool to drive your lover wild. Orally talented - you're known as the best kisser in the zodiac. Tips for the future: Be a little less sensitive. Not every little mistake should hurt you. Spend time away from your partner every so often - independence is a good thing. Find ways to take care of yourself. You'll be happier if you put yourself first. Get your free love profile at Blogthings.

Finally Friday! It's a lovely spring day in NH and we're going to the mall later. Not exactly the type of thing you do on a nice day, but there's not much else to do. I can't wait for summer or 70 degree weather, whichever comes first. :) My roomie and I have decided to stay in this dorm next year. Hopefully we'll get to know more people better next year. It will be good. I cant really think of much else that is new. Life is kinda uneventful. I have lost all motivation to work and write essays, which sucks cause that's all I have left to do for classes. Write essays and study for finals. Sounds exciting doesn't it? That's what I thought. *later*

My college...is very stupid. We had a blizzard this morning and classes werent cancelled. I trudged across campus in 8 inches of snow and of course after my only class of the day, I discover that classes for the remainder of the day are cancelled. Go figure! My roomie and I watched quality tv (springer, maury, animal precinct) and had hot chocolate. I supposed i can forgive this insane administration. Plus, it's a holiday! we shouldnt have gone to school to begin with! *sigh* that was my complaining for the day

It's the national day of love! Hope everyone is having a lovely holiday because I sure have. I made cookies, handed out my valentine's and got to see Joshua over the weekend! Yeah...the weekend. I can barely remember it all! lol But i do remember the hockey games and the fun...(hehe) Thanks Joshie for everyhting you've done for me. I feel like this day is dedicated to you because you are my Valentine after all. Ich liebe dich viel, Schatz! Dein ist mein ganzes Herz! *later*

There are so many crazy things happening and the semester just started!! Our stupid professor gave us an exam for tomorrow and no one has any idea what it's gonna be on. I hate teachers who do that. Another thing is my body is being evil. Enough said. So the semester has started out a little shaky I just hope things get better. I am excited for break already though. And for next year.... If that makes any sense. My problems, however, are miniscule compared to those of the world. I don't want to get started on that though. *later days*

Well its back to the same old shit - just different days. I'm already excited for next year. I need a change of atmosphere in this place. This semester is going to be tough. I've a lot more work to do than last semester. Especially in German and honors Anthro. Wish me luck! til later!

Adriana Lima is probably the hottest model. Seriously. I know this sounds weird, but I'd much rather have pictures of pretty girls in my room than pics of pretty boy guys. I'm not a lesbian, girls are just prettier to look at! Is this weird? Whatever. My Victoria's Secret catalogues are proving very useful for my Adriana collage! lol :)

So I just watched The Notebook and it made me cry like crazy! Just thought I'd share that.... Cause i'm still all sad! I never used to cry at movies!! Now suddenly I release the waterworks all the time. Movies like that get my hopes up.

So funny how people piss you off Ha Ha HA Ha

You Know You're From Pennsylvania When... You've never referred to Philadelphia as anything but "Philly." And New Jersey has always been "Jersey." You refer to Pennsylvania as "PA." "You guys" is a perfectly acceptable reference to a group of men & women. You know how to respond to the question "Djeetyet?" (Didyoueatyet?) You learned to pronounce Bryn Mawr, Wilkes-Barre, Schuylkill, Bala Cynwyd, Duquesne, New Tripoli, Tunkhannock, Punxsutawney, Tamaqua, Susquehanna, Allegheny, and Monongahela. You know what a "Mummer" is, and are disappointed if you can't catch at least highlights of the parade. The first day of buck and the first day of doe season are school holidays. You can use the phrase "fire hall wedding reception" and not even bat an eye. You can't go to a wedding without hearing the "Chicken Dance," at least one Polka and either an Italian song (sung in Italian,) or "Hava Nagila." At least 5 people on your block have electric "candles" in all or most of their windows all year long. You know what a "Hex sign" is. You know what a "State Store" is, and your out of state friends find it incredulous that you can't purchase liquor at the mini-mart. You own only three condiments "A-1, Heinz 57 and Heinz ketchup". Words like "hoagie", "crick", "chipped ham", "sticky buns", "shoo-fly pie", "pierogies" and "pocketbook" actually mean something to you. You can eat cold pizza (even for breakfast) and know others who do the same. You know several places to purchase or that serve Scrapple, Summer Sausage (Lebanon Bologna), and Hot Bacon Dressing. One of the highlights of your life was a field trip to Penn's Cave and Horseshoe curve. You know the time and location of every "wing night" in a 20 mile radius. You don't think people from Philly or Pittsburgh talk funny. You don't understand all the hype about Rolling Rock beer; You've been drinking it for years even though Iron City is better. You consider an exotic vacation to be a trip to Ocean City, Virginia Beach, or Myrtle Beach. You think very little of an Amish buggy on the road. You learned long ago how to "step carefully" around the buggy tie-ups in the supermarket parking lot. You can go 2 weeks in winter without sunshine and think this is normal. You know that Blue Ball, Intercourse, Climax, Bird-in-Hand, Virginville, Paradise, Mars, and Slippery Rock are all PA towns. There is no such thing as a "Philly Cheesesteak". It's just called a "Cheesesteak." You not only have heard of Birch Beer, but you know that it comes in several colors: Red, Blue, White, Brown, Gold. You know what REAL potpie is. You ask the waitress for "dippy eggs" for breakfast. You consider Pittsburgh to be "out west," and you know the fastest way to Philly is the Turnpike. When it snows, they put cinders on the roads instead of sand. Know that Yuengling is pronounced "Ying-ling," and believe that it really is a premium beer You have an uncontrollable urge to buy bread and milk when you hear the word "snow." You live within two miles of a plant that makes potato chips, corn chips, pretzels, candy, or ice cream, or that packages turkeys, beans, or bologna. You can stop along the road to buy fruits, vegetables, or crafts on the "honor system." You know that chicken corn soup from a fire house is the most nearly perfect food on earth. You say things like, "Outen the lights," "I'm calling off today," and "They're calling for snow." You've heard of distelfinks and hex signs. You only buy your beer and soda by the case. You think the roads in any other state are smooth. You know the Penn State cheer, and although you've never attended Penn State, you are a most obnoxious Penn State fan. Hearing horses clopping down a paved street doesn't bring you to the window to see what's going on outside. You never see any Confederate Flags, except on the Gettysburg Battlefield. You prefer Hershey's Chocolate to Godiva. School closings due to snow take the radio stations a half an hour to finish, because just about every town has its own school district. You have the Rolling Rock bottle memorized: "From the glass lined tanks of Old Latrobe, we tender this premium beer for your enjoyment. . . . " Elect pro-life Democrats and pro-choice Republicans for Governor Frequently go "with," e.g., "You going to the market? Mind if I come with?" Refer to something as "a whole nother," e.g., "That's a whole nother issue." You REALLY HATE antiquers. On Sunday mornings you would scream "Go back to Jersey!" at least once on the way to church. When you were a kid and somebody really pissed you off, you said, "I'm gonna deck you!" The only Jewish people that you've ever met have been from New York or New Jersey. You love the Phillies (unless they stink) in which case you love the Orioles (unless they stink) in which case you solemnly swear that you've never even liked the Phillies or the Orioles, but have always been a Penn State fan. You actually get these jokes and pass them on to other friends from Pennsylvania. Get Your Own "You Know You're From" Meme Here More cool things for your blog at Blogthings

I can't believe how fast college is flying by! It's already almost christmas break. Craziness... Hard to believe how fast life in general flies by.

I've realized that at college, when people leave their hometowns, they suddenly have a newfound love and respect for where they came from. Like, if you live in Ohio or something, and you hate it - always have, but then you go to school in Maine, you're suddenly like, Ohio Rocks! when people start doing all their Maine things and you try to tell them, that's not the way we drink Pop in Ohio! I've noticed that a lot here. I bet half the people on this campus could not WAIT to get out of their town/state and now suddenly it's all like "Oh New Jersey Rocks!" and "Massachusetts Pride!" It's insane. You hated it there, now you love it. We know you some from somewhere else, that's all well and cool. Just don't rub it in people's faces and say what you do back in Connecticut is better than what they do here in your new little college town. NOBODY REALLY CARES! So stop making your little groups and stop trying to prove you're better than another state because OF COURSE you think you are! Everyone thinks they're better than the next, but in reality we're all just pathetic losers trying to get other people's attention to go ooo ahhh and get them to want to love your state/hometown, etc. and they won't. Sorry, you're efforts to impress are wasted. People will always be loyal to the place they're from, unless of course they're criminals or something or they were beaten as children or they're from somewhere like Montana or West Virginia in which case it's understandable. There - i vented!

I am realllly looking forward to Thanksgiving break.... Really.

Studying is really getting to me!!! AHH!! But no fear - I will conquer these exams, even if it means the end of me. For now, it's off to bed to try to acquire some sleep.... I'm really looking forward to Thanksgiving! I haven't been home since Aug. 26 and I've already lived through New Hampshire's first snowfall! Crazy, huh? *toodles*

Despite the fact I voted Kerry and am an Independent...my results still followed the way our country swayed this year.... Lovely! You Have Sex Like a Republican! You aren't so sure about all these new trendy sex practices. Bisexuality, polyamoury, furries, squishing bugs - yuck! You prefer your sex to be old fashioned - with standards. Don't forgetthough ... Republicans CAN be kinky. Think Dick Morris and his toe sucking fetish. What Political Party Do You Do It Like? More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva