I've just had a verrry insightful conversation with Angela. It was about growing up, not being stupid, knowing who your friends are, and relationships at this point. We found it soo stupid thinking about "how it goes." People are just like, "will you go out with me?" "Yea" ...."sweet...umm i have a girlfriend....neato..." COME ON PEOPLE!! I've decided that I haven't found anyone worth having a relationship yet. The one relationship I was in started so fast. I definatley rushed into it, but I'm not sure if I regret it or not. Now I know what I want a little more than I did then. I want to actually be seeing someone for a while, kind of see what a relationship may be like, before I actually have one. Another thing we talked about was change. Both of us realize that time brings change, but both of us also noticed the recent directions this change took. The short year between our 15th and 16th birthdays brought so much more vision to our lives. I think so much differently than I used to about everything. My future, my relationships, my friendships, what people think about the world and whether I believe (and know) whether its right or wrong have all become a little more clear. Sure change is scary, but at some point time is going to kick us in the ass and tell us to get a hold of things. Stop being so naive. And though I realize that I have grown up, and I am not the innocent person I once was, I still have a youthful streak that will stay with me as long as I can hold onto it (forever I hope). Friends..I will not take your shit..I will speak my mind...if you can't handle it,then you can't handle me...I will not participate in gossip, rumor spreading, the "I heard from..."'s...because you can't believe everything you hear...I will wait until I'm ready to handle a relationship..and even then I will enter in my own time...I will not be afraid to have my heart broken, because it will happen...I won't say things I know I do not mean...I will not let anyone elses opinions affect my descisions, because I know I can trust my judgement...I will trust my friends to push me in the right direction when I need them...I will listen to reason and at least consider it... I may be 11 days late...but writing this I've found my resolutions... I love you...you know who you are....