sumtimes i feel lyk all this bullshit, all this non-sense fighting is jus ta pass tha time away...just a way to make things a lil bite more realistic....cuz tha way i feel about him is nothing iv ever felt...its seems to out of reach. to say i love you and mean it...that..it scares me from time to time...i kno hes holding back..i kno i am to...so why am i so...uptight?tha small things upset me..lyk having pics of his friends on is dp...or when they say "i lvoe you" or "kisses" to him....i hate it..it pisses me off....it makes it seem lyk when he says it, it means nothing real...its jus sumthing u end a leter with, just sumthing to bring you at ease. so how can i tell? i dont think i can...my heart says hes real bout this, that this is what he wants...but then my fuckig brain comes into play and says, hes seattling...that hes jus messin wit ya. this bullshit is stupid, and yet, its not.♥