It's sacrifice False pretense you'll hurt again Stop pretending to deny False pretense you'll hurt again Oh, it's time to let it go I can't seem to understand it how you turned out to be so cold You tried but were caught red handed, are you happy with your role? It's funny to me how you've turned into such a joke... It's sacrifice False pretense you'll hurt again Stop pretending to deny False pretense you'll hurt again So play the game until you run out And play the game into my hand

It has been a shit long time since I been on here. Damn so much has happened I dont have time to say now but I miss this thing... I also wrote this: Ahh... Suspended from school yet again... But see when you get suspended from school, you are suspended of life. I cant be without the outside world. My life sinks into a neverending hole. The blackness in my life takes over. I am nothing. I am no one. I am not home now nor do I want to be. Home=Hell. Please let me back to school. Please... You don't understand how hard it is out here... You dont have any Idea... I won't smoke anymore pot... I won't. I will apologize to those kids I beat up. I will apologize... You must help me... Let me come back my life is on suspension along with myself...

Everything about my holidays sucked ass except for the days in between for vacation Everyone wish me luck I think that I am falling in love again. In fact I know I am so please excuse my absence from sitdiary Everyone please leave me tips or whatever I think that I need all the help I can get

Happy Birthday Jesus Have a beautiful holiday season everybody Much love from me

Tonight I watch the lights go out in your house Wondering how I could get so deep And you can still get to sleep In vain I blame my trembling on the cold air And I can't hide that I relied on you Like yellow does on blue And you were my good feeling, I'm kneeling Inside her room she paints me blue And you were my reason for breathing Inside her room she paints me blue Minnesota started raining on me And teenage love was underground Tonight I break the surface Minnesota started raining on me And no young girl was claiming me And naming me And destiny gets nervous and And you were my good feeling, I'm kneeling Inside her room she paints me blue And you were my reason for breathing Inside her room she paints me blue, again And you were my good feeling, I'm kneeling Inside her room she paints me blue And you were my reason for breathing Inside her room she paints me blue, again I hate you! You are ruining My life! Leave me Alone!

I am more than half done with my christmas shopping and I am sad I was forced to buy some of my gifts at KMart.. Sorry but I am strongly against Kmart. I don't know why but I hate it. Maybe it is that bastard in the electronics area who doesn't know shit... Oh well, I have gifts wrapped and bought for the following people and no eric I havent gotten you something yet but I will as soon as I get more money. I spent more than 150 dollars already. Carlee Jenna Joanna Adam Jon Anita Dana and me... Yes that is right I bought myself something But eric I will find something for you at a certain store that I know of by Sam Goody

Ahhhhh! I love this song Come with me Into the trees We'll lay on the grass And let the hours pass Take my hand Come back to the land Let's get away Just for one day Let me see you Stripped Metropolis Has nothing on this You're breathing in fumes I taste when we kiss Take my hand Come back to the land Where everything's ours For a few hours Let me see you Stripped Let me hear you Make decisions Without your television Let me hear you speaking Just for me Let me see you Stripped Let me hear you Make decisions Without your television Let me hear you speaking Just for me Let me see you Stripped

Hmmm... I have a question for all of my faithful audience How do I give someone security? Emotional Security I have some people who 1. I have no idea what to get them that is materialistic. 2. The gift I want to give them can't be wrapped in plastic So what do I do? I want to show them that I care about them. But that whole "buy them something you would like" isn't going to work. 1. All the things I like are childish 2. All the people I want to get stuff for are more sophistcated than me. So I am wondering what to do? If anybody knows, please tell me

Snickers Nutty and gooey - you always satisfy.What Kind of Candy Are You?

Lyrics from multiple songs to make a story: And we’ll be carrying on, until the day it doesn’t matter anymore Step aside, you forgot what this is for We fight to live, we live to fight And tonight, you’ll hear my battle cry We live our lives on the frontlines We’re not afraid of the fast times These days have opened up my eyes Your frustrations, complications, time is wasting You better figure out whether you’re wasting time It all comes down to I can’t make you feel what I do But I can feel for you, so, what do you got to lose? I’m gonna keep on holding on, while all of this is going on I should’ve seen this all along, but now, I see right where I went wrong That doesn’t mean I can’t be strong So, now, I’ve got to carry on It’s hard to see that I was gone I’ll stay right here where I belong And now, I see where the threat lies

What I really meant to say is that I am sorry for who I am!

!!!GIRLS: if you want guys to do for you then post "GUYS ONLY" GUYS: if you want girls to do for you then post "GIRLS ONLY" And be completely honest what would you do if I? 1. I made a move on u: 2. I kissed you: 3. I lived next door to you: 4. I started smoking: 5. I asked you on a date: 6. I was hospitalized: 7. I ran away from home: 8. I got into a fight and you weren't there? 9. I asked u to have sex? 10. i asked u out? ::WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:: 9. Personality: 10. Eyes: 11. Hair: 12. Body: ::WOULD YOU:: 13. Be my friend? 14. Keep a secret if I told you one? 15. Hold my hand? 16. Go on a date with me? 17. Keep in touch? 18. Try and solve my problems? 19. Love me? ::HAVE YOU EVER:: 21. Lied to make me feel better? 22. Wanted to kiss me? 23. Wanted to kill me? 24. Broke my heart? 25. Kept something important from me? ::AND MORE:: 27. Who are you? 28. Are we friends? 29. When and how did we meet? 30. Describe me in one word: 31. What was your first impression? 32. Do you still think that way about me now? 33. What reminds you of me? 34. If you could give me anything what would it be? 35. How well do you know me? 36. When's the last time you saw me? 37. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't? 38. Are you gonna put this on yours to see what I say about you? ::WOULD YOU:: 39. Kiss me? 40. Makeout with me?

Why have we turned to ourselves and asked us many questions, which we know that we don't have the answers to? Do we not realize that in the end we end up just like everyone else? Just as fucked up as everybody else! Why can't we see, that we are not alone in the world, We have many people who know what it is like to be in the situations as we are. The drugs forced onto us. The alcohol, the sex, the life, the knives, the never ending pain that we are forced to intake. We look at ourselves in the mirror, and what do we see. A person you hate, a person that you want to hurt, well then we think that the world starts turning against us. Or maybe it might... So we tighten up and our close friends drop out of touch, then we are truly alone. By that time we have lost all of the world around us, and the sad thing is that we know that we have lost it. We know that the world is gone. So we continue on our down ward spiral. At last, when the night has finally slit our wrists deep enough for us not to care or worry, Some one steps into our lives and pulls us out of the icy depths of the hell that had engulfed us. As they pull us out, they open us with warm words and open arms. Feeling loved we open ourselves exposing all of our issue and problems to them. There is no way that we could be hurt again. We have them. They open us more and more. We meet all of our old friends and then we are almost happy. But then they ask us for something. Something that the last one asked for. At first, we refuse. We can't submit ourselves for the pain again. But then they keep pushing. And pushing, Finally we forfeit and we give up. Then we know, after we give them what they need we know that it is gone. Read from top and repeat This is our lives or at least from my eyes. We can't keep going on like this. We just can't...

The following are lyrics by Thousand Foot Krutch... If you know the song that is good And he tells everyone a story, Cause he thinks his life is boring And he fights so you won't ignore him, Cause that's his biggest fear And he cries, but you'll rarely see him do it And he loves but he's scared to use it So he hides behind the music Cause he likes it that way And he knows, he's so much more than worthless He needs to find the surface Cause he's starting to get nervous Have you ever felt this way before Cause I don't wanna hide here anymore Take me to a place where nothing's wrong And thanks for coming, shut the door And they say some one out there sees us, Well if you're real, then save me Jesus Cause I've been this way for far too long I wasn't meant to feel alone

It’s not like I’m walking alone into the valley of the shadow of death Stand beside one another, ‘cause it ain’t over yet I’d be willing to bet that if we don’t back down You and I will be the ones that are holding the Crown in the end When it’s over, we can say, “Well done” But not yet, ‘cause it’s only begun So, pick up, and follow me, we’re the only ones To fight this thing, until we’ve won We drive on and don’t look back It doesn’t mean we can’t learn from our past All the things that we mighta done wrong We could’ve been doing this all along Everybody, with your fists raised high Let me hear your battle cry tonight Stand beside, or step aside We’re on the frontline And we’ll be carrying on, until the day it doesn’t matter anymore Step aside, you forgot what this is for We fight to live, we live to fight And tonight, you’ll hear my battle cry We live our lives on the frontlines We’re not afraid of the fast times These days have opened up my eyes And now, I see where the threat lies We’ve got to lead the way

Are we so alone, So distant, So forgotten, As we think ourselves to be? These are our lives But did they ever even matter? Are we worth remembering?

WARNING: The following has a tendency to offend the easily offended... If you are one of those, or don't have a sense of humor do not read on or scroll down.... Retarded Mental Penis

when i die, will they remember not what i did, but what i haven't done. it's not the end, that i fear with each breath. it's life that scares me to death... when we built these dreams on sand, how they all slipped through our hands. and this might be our only chance. let's take this one day at a time, i'll hold your hand if you hold mine. the time that we kill keeps us alive. your words won't save me now. i'm at the edge feeling the sweat drip from my brow. get a grip on yourself is what they say, every hour every day. hands over my ears, I'VE BEEN SCREAMING ALL THESE YEARS! WE CAME IN SEARCH OF ANSWERS! WE LEFT EMPTY HANDED AGAIN! SHOTS FIRED INTO THE SKY... ARE NOW RETURNING! WHERE THE FUCK WILL YOU HIDE! from the laughter in the closet, some alive but the door hinges are squeaking letting in thin shards of light. and now our hands extending outward, quiet comfort they invite, and do we dare take what they offer? do we step into the light?

One last thing I beg you please just before you go I've watched you fly on paper wings halfway round the world Until they burned up in the atmosphere and sent you spiraling down landed somewhere far from here with no one else around to catch you falling down and I'm looking at you now and I can't tell if you're laughing between each smile there's a tear in your eye there's a train leaving town in an hour it's not waiting for you, and neither am I "Swing for the fences son" he must have told you once but that was a conversation you took nothing from so raise your glass now and celebrate exactly what you've done just put off another day of knowing where you're from and you can catch up with yourself if you run... and I can't tell if you're laughing between each smile there's a tear in your eye there's a train leaving town in an hour it's not waiting for you, and neither am I is this the life that you lead? or the life that's lead for you? will you take the road that's been laid out before you will we cross paths somewhere else tonight? somewhere else tonight... and I can't tell if you're laughing between each smile there's a tear in your eye there's a train leaving town in an hour it's not waiting for you, and neither am I