I thought this would be a night where you wouldnt interfere and then the game of truth and dare popped up. i was asked how i actually felt about you and i found out that i couldnt actually give a straight answer. i am still in love with you and i hate it. i dont want to be and i refuse to admit it to you... this isnt how i wanted tonight to end up.. i wanted to be distracted and yet here i am.. focused more on you thsn ever before... i am not really ready for graduation. i dont want to leave the daily normalness and sll my friends. im really not ready. this is going to be a test of my true strength and i really dont think i am strong enough... everything seems to be out of my control and i dont know who is.. it is scary and i just hope that this is just a phase.