"If god has a purpose for everything, every death has a meaning, every single molecule in out being is leading up to something, ment to change for the better. Then i have yet to realize the meaning of many things in my life. I dont mean to be a downer, but i dont know if i will as long as i live, if things keep going the way they are going. The only thing good in my life are a few true friends and my Girlfriend. She is what i look forward to. Without her i might not make it out of bed every morning. If i were to lose her... I honestly do not know what i would do. I guess i would go nuts and get thrown in jail/asylum with "Mr.Planters". But all this anger and all this pain that i keep on hiding, making everyone say that my life is perfect, but yet if they only knew the sadness i feel and the tears ive cried. Then....and then only..just maybe they would say that anymore..."