I am so nervous! XD Jay is supposed to call me tonight! Or tomorrow... I don't know when exactly, but I'm still so nervous! What if I sound stupid? ---------------------------- Tomorrow is Sadie's first birthday party. I'm so proud of what she's accomplished in this past year... her first with us on this planet. She has grown so much... I love her. James... he has yet again made me cry... out of happiness. He accepts that I'm atheist... dammit he accepted it! He fucking accepted it!!! Goddammit I love him!!! All he did was come up to me and wrap his arms around me and whispered in my ear, "I will always love you, no matter what." and I started crying on his shoulder. He is so great... Oh, and I'm gonna start gaging my ears. I've got a small gage in my right ear right now. It doesn't hurt anymore.