it has been ever so long since i have written in here. I have resurrected my friendship with Ryoko and am I glad i have. She is so sweet and such a good friend. I think things are becoming rocky between me and two of my friends but how else would it be? They hang out with each other and when I do try to sit with them, and I paid attention to? No not really they just faun over each other constantly so I have gotten over all that. Perhaps I won't lose the friendship but it may be possible. I have a new crush who I hope likes me too but he has a gf even though she isn't going to school with him anymore soon't know what will happen with all that. One can only be hopeful though huh? Well I passed all of my classes from last semester and I am happy about that now it is up to me to help Chris with spanish so he doesn't fail too badly. it's not really all that hard to understand but still. he needs help and i am happy to help. I have grown more self confident too even though I never thought it could happen but hey things are never set in stone are they? I guess that's all I have to write today. But from now on I shall write or try to atleast write more often. Tah for now!

Hello yet again. Not like anyone reads this anyway but I feel like writing. I have become friends with my exboyfriend and my friend again. We aer just as close as we were before they hurt me. But who cares aboput that right? Well Um....hehe In doing so I suppose I have pissed off Ryoko and so now she hates my ever-loving guts. We had a few choice words to say to each other and that was that. I miss her a bit but I'll get over it. Perhaps we will become friends yet again I'm not sure but I will try. Tha's all I have time for today but I promise I shall have a longer entry next time.

Well it has been a very long time and a lot has happened. I have given up on the hope of finding someone I can trust and love. They all seem to think they can cheat on me and fuck around on me. So that is shot. School is going fine. I have a lot more friends and more enemys come with that.....well I suppose that's a good enough update. Tah!

Sorry I've not written in here. Well I made secretary. And we're out of school now. I am so bored. out of my mind almost. Hope you all have a great summer. Curtis is suppose to be up here next week sometime. So I have that to look forward to. Well guess that's it.

Tomorrow is the big day. So much to do. So little time. Hopefully I will find out if I made secretary then. My step father will not be going to it because he hates me. I will be lucky if they let me talk to Diasuke on Saturday. They both hate me so much. And I thought I was lovable. Oh well. Guess my life can't be perfect. I am happy with what I've got though. Guess that's it. Write all the hell that happens later bye byes

Today is just one of those off days. I don't know what the heck is going on. I just found out that my new bf has to go to court for sticking up for me. I knew I was cursed. I can't even have a bf without making him suffer. I am so sorry. My life sucks. School is almost out which means I will be stuck here at home for all summer. It will be more hell than I think I can handle. I can't stay after school and help with the banquet anymore becasue my step-dad is being a big bitch and now all this. But I guess it is a good thing that he took up for me. Funny, I got called a 'slut' by someone I don't even know. At anyrate, I can't wait for him to call me Saturday. Well I guess that's all for now. Hope I hear happy news tomorrow. Oh yeah and we get out anuals tomorrow. ^_^ P.S. It has been brought to my attention that Diasuke may infact feel that he has done that for nothing. Which brings me to add this. : I never wanted hi to get introuble for me. And I really appreciate what he did. I guess I am just a bit rusty at the dating thing. It's been so long.

I am so tired. Today seemed to go on forever. I was in a good mood but I didn't really show it. :: sighs :: But it's ok. I'm running for Secretary in the FFA and I hope I get it but if I don't at least I can say I tried. Right? I hope Diasuke gets ungrounded soon. I miss talking to him. Well I have to go. It seems I used up my time just thinking of what to write in here. I'll fix it tomorrow. Hope to get a reply from you Diasuke. ^_^ By all

OMG! I am so happy. I don't think I could get any happier. Not in a million years. Today was a good day to start off with but then to top it off, I checked on here and ....oh my gosh I can't stop smiling. :: mouth is hurting abit :: It seems that a certain person was not mad at me and in fact likes me still. For he asked me out and how can I refuse? I mean....I've liked him for over a year....and when I start thinking about how much I like him I almost say I love him. But It may be hard for me to let myself say those words so soon. Seeing as how the last person I said that to ripped my heart out and burnt it. But....I've just found a treatment for the burn. A very good treatment. I just can't believe this is happening. It doesn't matter that he got me grounded for two weeks or not. Those four hours were so worth it. But it seems that I am ungrounded and all. Thanks to my sister who is not as horrible as she use to be. I am soooooooooo happy. I thought I had no chance. But I am so lucky. I promise I will do everything in my power to keep him from getting hurt and to help peice his heart back together. No matter what. Then I need to start working on bringing him out of his shell. :: is still smiling so hugely :: I thought I had lost my chance with him but is seems I thought wrong. Well good day to you all.....I'm off. My face hurts. But it's a good hurt.

Another Saturday evening. Guess I shall really start writing in here again. I wish I wasn't grounded from the phone for another week. :: Sigh :: I wish elf would call. Yeah, I talked to him for 4 hours straight but it was worth it. Me and another girl have been discussing a certain subject all week and she came to the decision that she wanted the other guy that she's been with for 3 years and that I should go for the other one because we were meant to be. Yeah, I really like him but I begin to wonder if I should not have told him how I really felt about him. I just hope he checks the diaries Monday so he can atleast talk to me on here. Well....yesterday when I was playing Earthball, I fell down so now I have a bruise on my knee and there is some skin missing. But I shall live. I went to the weight room all week and I am so worn out. My legs are really toned though and that's worth all that pain and the fact that I am trying to make my ankles stronger than they are right now. I have an FFA banquet coming up this friday. It seems that everything is happening on that day. It is Friday the 13th so I guess it's normal?...Well guess I better go.

OMFG!!! I have not been on here in forever!!!!! And like yeah so much crap has happened. And I think I have a boyfriend. I would willingly do anything to fly to Florida and give Diasuke a new zip-lock baggy.....even give him my heart. But maybe it's too soon to feel like that. But still......:: sighs :: I thought I was over him last year but I wasn't. I think I still liked him when I was going out with the unspeakable jerk. Well I'll write in here more when I have time. TAH!

I finaly get to talk on here! Yeah I am getting a computer in January so then I will be able to talk to you guys more. My step dad is becomming the biggest asshole ever to rome the earth. Christmas was great. Mum is about ready to throw Tommy out. Piper still lives which I guess is a good thing. Mum is cracking up over all her e-mails over there. I am thinking about moving into the library till I get my computer so I can type on here. I miss all of my friends on line. Hopefully I will get to see some of my friends from school at Ryoko's New Year's Eve party. Hopefully Nexxus will come if we can get a hold of him. Well guess tis al for now. TAH!

I only have two more days to write on here as much as I'd like too. I'll miss talking to all my friends. I would have posted sooner but my computer would not let me log in. I'm on the one next to it. Um...nothing much has happened to me. My step dad has been an asshole as usual. Made my mum cry. Stuff like that. Oh yeah I got to open a Christmas present early. It contained three DVDs: Aladdin, Seven Brides For Seven Brothers, and White Christmas. They are old movies but I love them just the same. I grew up with them. Um....guess that's it for now. Talk to you when I can.

It rained us out of school again. But I heard on the radio that we are expecting flurries. So yay snow! I think I have a serious problem. I've played Spyro enter the dragonfly and last night I had a dream with all my friends in it and we were all chasing baby dragonflies. I could play the most brutal game in the world and have a dream about it. Other than that, I got to see some pics of my friend. That's all. Oh and ****** was in my dream too. I'll tell Ryoko about it.

I hate finals. We always have to fill out these bubble sheets and my name always ends up being Robert on there because they only give you so many spaces. Stupid things. Since I will not be able to write in here much in a few weeks, I have started writing in a coded diary at home. I write it is code so my parents can't read it. Smart huh? I took off my nail polish. I dunno why. Guess I just get urges to paint them every now and then. Not much of a girly girl. All my friends are trying to hook me and ****** up. It's nice of them and all but I do not know if he likes me or not. I am a pisces which means I am unusually shy and very psycic(sp?). Everyone comes to me for help because I am not quick to take sides and I am emotionally knowlegeble(sp?) of stuff like that. Well tis all for now I guess. Tah!

My nails are purple! Yeah I got tired of them being blue. Anyways I forgot to write this yesterday, but I forgot. I was at my grandmothers house and for the sake of nonrepetetiveness (sp?) I will use their nicknames. Ok I was at Nana's house and her me and Nana May were watching Texas justice. Well this chick on there said that her ex-bf was just a booty call. She turned to me and asked what's a booty call. I died. Laughing of course. Then she asked nanna. well they both shrugged and looked at me. I then had to tell them. It's sad when a grandchild has to explain a thing like that to their grandparents. Other than that I'm ok. One of my friends asked ****** out for me and I had no idea. I wanted to strangle him. Oh well. I do not know if he said yes or not. tis all for now. Tah!

Yesterday we got rained out of school shich sucked. I was stuck at home doing nothing all day. I would rather be here with my friends. The ones I have left anyway. It is so boring. In about 2 weeks, I will not be able to post on here as frequently because I will be going on Christmas break and swapping classes. I'll be torn from my computer. I'll miss talk to all of you. I like the rain and all but I wish it would not get bad enough to cancel school. Guess that is it. Tah

For some reason, my hands are shaking really bad. It's raining. I love the rain. I just mada an awful comment to Kathryn on here. But it is the truth. She doesn't know how it's been for me. She thinks she has it bad. But I am going to refrain from typing my life story on here. Annica came so close to giving ****** a note telling him I liked him. That was not cool. But she is my friend she is just doing what she thinks is best. Not much to write today. Maybe tomorrow.

I am in a very good mood today. Um....Yeah do not think I am a school geek or anything, I just like going to school to get away from my family and to be with my friends. My 5 day weekend was okay exept for the fact I was stuck at home, my step dad pissed me off so bad I was crying and had breathing problems because of it, I hate living when I am at home, and oh yeah I hope my step dad dies very soon in a very painful way. Other than that, I helped decorate the house for Christmas. Other than all that, my life is as it always is.

They've finally unlocked the internet and I can talk to you all again. Well my mum has let my step-dad come back but I have this feeling that he will leave after thanksgiving. Oh yeah, I will not be able to write on here again till Next Monday. Thanksgiving break. Unless by some miracle I can get a hold of a computer. Well I have a crush on someone. But I do not know if he likes me.

For once I feel happy. Mum said i could tell the secret just not who gave her the money. My mum is getting enough money for the divorce! YAY! I will finally be rid of him. He needs to change his life. Things are so stressy lately for my mum now she has this awful looking rash thig that people at her work said looked like shingles. It is related to nerves. I wish I could help her. I hope to be getting my christmas presents from my granny sometime soon. Yes I know it is only November but they live in Ohio and we do not get to see them so they just send our stuff out early and let us have them. This is going to be a good week I think. Well tis all for now. Buh bye.