It feels like I'm walking around in a lifeless body. Nothing seems alright, not anymore. B/c it all seems so stupid. Like nothing even matters. It's like depression has taken over my mind. And I can no longer survive without it. I want people to feel sorry for me. But they don't ever understand me or what I go through. I want everyone to pity me and sheild me from bad things. And hold my hand and lead me. I'm about to give up and I need someone to take over for me. I have to weight of the world on my shoulders and no one is there to even lift it off for 2 seconds. I need a break. Someone help me please. I just need someone to comfort me right now. a shouler to cry on. I need someone to take care of me. I can't do it by myself. I want someone to bring me food in bed and just leave me alone for about 3 days straight without any phone calls, plans, or any yelling or talking. I need this so badly. But I have no one to do it. And no one I'd ask for fear of seeming so silly or selfish. It's just what I need. A break..