for the first time ever today, i ignored Byron Scyzgial. it was subtle; i mean, i didn't walk away from him. we simply did not approach each other. shan was with him, so i didn't even try. i didn't want to talk to him today anyway, so her being there really made it easier for me to preoccupy myself with someone else. he seemed really upset, i guess because he doesn't have a computer to take his test on, but whatever. i'd hate to fuck his day up today too. and i hate drama, so i wasn't even going to get in it. i think i made the better decision. he'll come around eventually. i'm really tired of being the pushover anyway. i guess he just doesn't need me right now. ha! if he asked later why i didn't say hi then i'm going to say that i didn't even see him. that's what he did to me yesterday. i was standing right there and he looked right at me like twice and a few minutes later when he finally talked to me, he asked me how long i had been standing there. like he really didn't see me! i mean come on. how can you not see me? i'm really hard to miss, if you know what i mean. you know, i'll be there to help him out if he asks me to but if he doesn't, then i'm not going to get into it. period. and besides, every time i have an issue and i tell him about it, he tells me to get over it. like what ever it is, it can't be that serious. why do i care? i lost so much sleep last night thinking about that goddamn bookbag. how pathetic is that? i woke up late this morning, pissed off, and i'm sitting here now, unshowered, and bored as fucking hell. ugh. WHY DO I CARE?!!! you guys don't care, so why am i wasting my time? you guys don't give a shit about what i do everyday and how i deal with it. although it is nice to get it all out. and it'll be very amusing for me to read this years from now. i may even get a good laugh. who knows? who cares?! i'm going to shut up now. i'm beginning to annoy myself.