i just had the sickest dream. i had one wish and with it i wished that my little brother and sister (the twins) no longer existed. the genie told me that there was a catch and i didn't even care. i didn't even want to hear it. "just do it", i said. and so he made with the magic, and there in front of me were my two 4 year old siblings, dead. i asked him why they were still here; for they were supposed to cease to exist. he then told me about the 'catch' that i was so unwilling to hear. i had to eat them. so i went over to them and the first thing i did was look at their brains. they were so small! their cadavers were so vulnerable. i could no longer endure the wish that i had asked for. i felt so guilty! i wanted them alive again. alive and just as annoying as ever. i guess that dream, however sickening it was, was a wake-up call (no pun intended). you know, it's weird though. because i've been really curious about what human meat tastes like. i asked my mother once if she would ever eat human flesh. she said hell no, especially not a child's. the dream could have come from that too. ha! i'm debating on whether to tell her about the dream or not. she'd probably be really upset if i told her. although it was pretty interesting. but anyway, i slept in this morning and i need a shower. my mother and i are supposed to go to the holocaust museum today. i've wanted to go since i became absolutetly fascinated with WW2. but whatever. ima go now.