♥breaker. i dont know why but i'm all really sad for some flucking reason and i dont enjoy it. err.. i'm just sad! i really miss sam right now.. i want to talk to him. and it makes me mad when somebody's over there.. or even when he's alone and he calls, says somthing retarted then hangs up. it really makes me angry. BUT i'm nice and i forget about it.. idk. i'm just stressed.. i godda like let it out and just CRY. today in science i was making myself cry [Just to show them that i could make myself cry] and it felt like i was just crying out of relief cuz i just felt like crying. i just DONT feel good and i just want to talk to sam.... errr. there was one extremely funny thing today. megg [in l.a] looks at me and goes 'SARAH WHY ARE YOU SO.... FAT?!' and i look at her and started talking with my hands and i go 'cause i'm unhappy.' and she lost it.. so i'm like 'i eat because i'm unhappy.. and i'm unhappy because i eat.' it was funny i fucking love sam! SOOOOOOO much! i'm just SAD... i want him to read this just because i cant fucking stop thinking about him right now.. i always do think of him but i just cant get him off my mind right now.. well i'll go now.. this is all to upsetting. k bye -your beautiful [edit]---- Ok.. i'm calling him..